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Ghost1 · 03-10-2013, 01:18 PM

Damn.....v just nailed my smoking "addiction" on the head. But it still seems far less severe then others....like jesuits said i can smoke an not smoke whever i want....im talking cigs....i RARELY smoke...but i always cop a pack b4 i go out for a big night of drinking....but then i could go a month without even thinking about a cig. . Tho i will say when im stressed.....which has been seldom as of late, i will resort to smoking. What is the significance to this and am i not still far less addicted to cigs then the.norm....i mean there r degrees, r there nit?

veritas · 03-10-2013, 01:59 PM

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Originally Posted by Bags

Damn.....v just nailed my smoking "addiction" on the head. But it still seems far less severe then others....like jesuits said i can smoke an not smoke whever i want....im talking cigs....i RARELY smoke...but i always cop a pack b4 i go out for a big night of drinking....but then i could go a month without even thinking about a cig. . Tho i will say when im stressed.....which has been seldom as of late, i will resort to smoking. What is the significance to this and am i not still far less addicted to cigs then the.norm....i mean there r degrees, r there nit?

there are degrees anthony, and you are actually more dependant than you believed...that is the nature of the beast sir.

Seyance · 03-10-2013, 01:25 PM

that maybe true, I need to go through some trauma to find that out. most people use it to escape and take their minds off things. but that stems from being weak minded anyway, i know it won't really help me escape, I live firmly in reality and am too self aware to let something like addiction take over my life.

veritas · 03-10-2013, 01:30 PM

I agree that there are truths in other worldviews....but JESUS IS THE TRUTH.

why do I say this? becuase Jesus is the only shot we have (if we are being honest with ourselves) of defeating sin.

because sin cannot be beat.....

i know this is too simple.

and thus we are back at the parables arent we>?

Objective · 03-10-2013, 01:31 PM

C.d.m: Want to evaluate me some day? ^^ Dead serious and I'm curious about how good you really are. I'm pretty much fucked up so I got a few therapists under my belt, perhaps I'm able to evaluate you as a therapist as well. I live in Norway so calling your number is out of the question. Drop me your skype or aim if you're up for it.

veritas · 03-10-2013, 01:59 PM

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Originally Posted by Objective

C.d.m: Want to evaluate me some day? ^^ Dead serious and I'm curious about how good you really are. I'm pretty much fucked up so I got a few therapists under my belt, perhaps I'm able to evaluate you as a therapist as well. I live in Norway so calling your number is out of the question. Drop me your skype or aim if you're up for it.

what is your main problem?

Objective · 03-10-2013, 02:27 PM

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Originally Posted by c.d.m.

what is your main problem?

I thought you believed in confidentiality. But allright. Not giving a fuck or any motivation at all to do the necessary deeds to deal with dysthemia. Drained for energy most of the time. Own problems delve into my dreams, having 2-3 dreams a night is a normal thing. So on top of low fatigue (wich is normal for people with dysthemia) I wake up just as tired as I was when I fell asleep. Since I have learned to look upon night terrors as a great experience like watching horror movies in order to deal with it, my brain no longer shield me from the extremely brutal dreams. (We're talking family members getting chopped up and/or raped while I'm forced to watch kinda dreams). Lucid dreams is also an occurring thing of my already fucked up sleeping pattern (wich basicly is non-existent as well). As many don't know, or maybe not experience during a lucid dream, is that they drain you for energy more than a regular dream does.

I got a negative outlook on existence as there's no real meaning in life beside of whatever you fool yourself to believe. I constantly feel that anything I, or anyone do, doesn't really matter. So what's the point, right? Basicly what I'm saying is; Emotions is a product of evolution for our species to survive, whatever I choose to believe in isn't really ''me'' anyways. It's a product that just happens to be. Life itself is nothing but a huge trick. Because of this I also believe that therapy is simply manipulating ourselves to reach a fake paradise. If I manage to get there I visualize my life to be kinda like Pyro in this video;

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WUhOnX8qt3I

Being in that state is better than nothing, so I guess I'm not a lost case yet.. How can I learn to ''live'' again and actually care about what happens to me, the chicks I fuck and the people I talk with on a daily basis?

Split · 03-10-2013, 04:17 PM

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Originally Posted by Objective

I thought you believed in confidentiality. But allright. Not giving a fuck or any motivation at all to do the necessary deeds to deal with dysthemia. Drained for energy most of the time. Own problems delve into my dreams, having 2-3 dreams a night is a normal thing. So on top of low fatigue (wich is normal for people with dysthemia) I wake up just as tired as I was when I fell asleep. Since I have learned to look upon night terrors as a great experience like watching horror movies in order to deal with it, my brain no longer shield me from the extremely brutal dreams. (We're talking family members getting chopped up and/or raped while I'm forced to watch kinda dreams). Lucid dreams is also an occurring thing of my already fucked up sleeping pattern (wich basicly is non-existent as well). As many don't know, or maybe not experience during a lucid dream, is that they drain you for energy more than a regular dream does.

I got a negative outlook on existence as there's no real meaning in life beside of whatever you fool yourself to believe. I constantly feel that anything I, or anyone do, doesn't really matter. So what's the point, right? Basicly what I'm saying is; Emotions is a product of evolution for our species to survive, whatever I choose to believe in isn't really ''me'' anyways. It's a product that just happens to be. Life itself is nothing but a huge trick. Because of this I also believe that therapy is simply manipulating ourselves to reach a fake paradise. If I manage to get there I visualize my life to be kinda like Pyro in this video;

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WUhOnX8qt3I

Being in that state is better than nothing, so I guess I'm not a lost case yet.. How can I learn to ''live'' again and actually care about what happens to me, the chicks I fuck and the people I talk with on a daily basis?

I self diagnosed myself with dysthemia last summer... might've been withdrawal from meds though. But I know how you feel about being unable to motivate yourself to do anything/ really retard sleep schedules, its not so bad anymore... main thing that helped was running often/ regular exerxise

Witty · 03-10-2013, 01:56 PM

Veritas why do you ignore me?

I have problems, help me...I need you.

veritas · 03-10-2013, 02:00 PM

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Originally Posted by Witty

Veritas why do you ignore me?

I have problems, help me...I need you.

what is your main problem?

Witty · 03-10-2013, 02:02 PM

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Originally Posted by c.d.m.

what is your main problem?

I take my insecurities out on those closest to me, and push them away because getting too close to someone is much too scary even though it is all I want, so I take drugs and drink alcohol to subdue these feelings.

veritas · 03-10-2013, 02:21 PM

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Originally Posted by Witty

I take my insecurities out on those closest to me, and push them away because getting too close to someone is much too scary even though it is all I want, so I take drugs and drink alcohol to subdue these feelings.

what are your insecurities...be honest

Joe Metts · 03-10-2013, 02:13 PM

Well i'll let veritas have his moment. But he's wyling out.

veritas · 03-10-2013, 02:20 PM

its what I do Joe Metts....its what I do.

Joe Metts · 03-10-2013, 02:22 PM

Call me to hear my veritas impression. 7176988848

veritas · 03-10-2013, 02:26 PM

I will when I wake up from a nap.

Boredom · 03-10-2013, 03:51 PM

@c.d.m looking forward to what you have to say about that ^

a+++ thread

knowledge being dropped, n word @namix to your post about addiction. made some very good points

Joe Metts · 03-10-2013, 03:54 PM

I honestly made this thread to help V get that top spot again.

Glad it worked for him.

Boredom · 03-10-2013, 03:56 PM

eh, just dope to see something productive happening on this board aside from the mindless bickering/argueing about shit that doesn't matter.

Witty · 03-10-2013, 03:59 PM

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Originally Posted by Boredom

eh, just dope to see something productive happening on this board aside from the mindless bickering/argueing about shit that doesn't matter.

FUCK YOU I HOPE YOU DIE DO YOU EVEN LIFT YOU ARE A WASTE OF SPACE LOSER AND YOUR GIRLFRIEND IS NOT VERY ATTRACTIVE AND YOU HAVE NO FRIENDS AND YOU WILL PROBABLY DIE ALONE.

03-10-2013, 01:56 PM	#9
Witty Lime Life Join Date: Jan 2013 Posts: 16,978 Battle Record: 30-41 Accomplishments - Only Slightly Retarded Champed - Lyric Olympics - Summer Classic Rep Power: 85235118	Veritas why do you ignore me? I have problems, help me...I need you. __________________ He listens to voices inside of his mind Explicit and poisonous violent crime.

03-10-2013, 01:25 PM	#3
Seyance - Join Date: Feb 2013 Posts: 1,059 Battle Record: 0-4 Accomplishments - Open Mic HOF (2x) Champed - Fight Night VII Rep Power: 0	that maybe true, I need to go through some trauma to find that out. most people use it to escape and take their minds off things. but that stems from being weak minded anyway, i know it won't really help me escape, I live firmly in reality and am too self aware to let something like addiction take over my life.

03-10-2013, 01:31 PM	#5
Objective ( ͡º ͜ʖ ͡º) Join Date: Jan 2013 Posts: 3,868 Battle Record: 17-32 Rep Power: 52474192	C.d.m: Want to evaluate me some day? ^^ Dead serious and I'm curious about how good you really are. I'm pretty much fucked up so I got a few therapists under my belt, perhaps I'm able to evaluate you as a therapist as well. I live in Norway so calling your number is out of the question. Drop me your skype or aim if you're up for it.

03-10-2013, 02:13 PM	#13
Joe Metts Senior Member Join Date: Aug 2002 Location: Hanover, PA Posts: 2,760 Battle Record: 14-6 Rep Power: 18112003	Well i'll let veritas have his moment. But he's wyling out.

03-10-2013, 02:22 PM	#15
Joe Metts Senior Member Join Date: Aug 2002 Location: Hanover, PA Posts: 2,760 Battle Record: 14-6 Rep Power: 18112003	Call me to hear my veritas impression. 7176988848

03-10-2013, 03:51 PM	#17
Boredom Been On One Join Date: Jan 2013 Location: Vancouver, BC Posts: 1,617 Battle Record: 26-28 Champed - Newbie Tournament IV Rep Power: 415110	@c.d.m looking forward to what you have to say about that ^ a+++ thread knowledge being dropped, n word @namix to your post about addiction. made some very good points

03-10-2013, 03:54 PM	#18
Joe Metts Senior Member Join Date: Aug 2002 Location: Hanover, PA Posts: 2,760 Battle Record: 14-6 Rep Power: 18112003	I honestly made this thread to help V get that top spot again. Glad it worked for him.

03-10-2013, 03:56 PM	#19
Boredom Been On One Join Date: Jan 2013 Location: Vancouver, BC Posts: 1,617 Battle Record: 26-28 Champed - Newbie Tournament IV Rep Power: 415110	eh, just dope to see something productive happening on this board aside from the mindless bickering/argueing about shit that doesn't matter.