*ITT: I will tell you what defense mechanism(s) you frequently use, and possibly why you use them*

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Originally Posted by The Mind Assassin

good start...what do you believe your fate is?

For this discussion to take place we have to establish exactly what I mean by ''fate'' and what the word means to me. I use that term loosely and not followed by a set standard or anything like that, I use it as a word to describe a persons story and the journey it takes the being on, and rather than life itself already having a set path which the word ''fate'' rests upon, I believe you are in charge of your own fate even tho' you get pushed out of balance every now and then. However, trying to figure out why something happened and spending countless of hours on finding answers to things impossible to figure out unless the people in question are present is something I mostly look upon as a waste of time. Hence the reason to why I don't think I'm in denial. I don't deny possible mental issues I may, or may not, have either and I'm always open to solutions and ways to better myself.

As far as it comes to what I believe my ''fate'' is, I think it's learning how to think less and being more down to earth while being put through different obstacles at all times like anyone else. I can not predict my reactions to certain hardships or how my mental health will be in the future, but I feel it rests a lot on how I choose to take charge of my own life and regain stability in both my sleep and thinking pattern right now and how I learn to grow from it. My ''fate'' also revolves a lot around accepting that things are like they are; accepting rather than wondering why I haven't met the girl I'd like to be with yet and why I'm not emotionally open enough to try something real with those I know from before, accepting instead of pondering why I can't sleep beside of the fact it seems I have excess energy at almost all times, my past, and so on.. Perhaps I am struggling with denial since it seems like I'm circulating the issues and analyzing them as much as possible before I get to the core of the problem at hand? I don't know, but I think my fate is that I have to learn to come to terms with myself and who I am in any situation since anxiety is a huge part of who I am today, but not how I act. I'm actually struggling a bit with that right now, I feel like I'm misplaced while doing the things I want rather than being in denial tbh. It's as if I push through the denial stage and learn to be myself again through that process. Sleep is hardly a part of it, but its present for sure. If it's of any interest my dreams are often self reflective and often an eye opener to me, I think that's a pretty strong indicator that I want to evolve out of this shit.