*ITT: I will tell you what defense mechanism(s) you frequently use, and possibly why you use them*

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Originally Posted by Objective

Absolutely right and I suspected you'd say that I'd deny denial.. But it's rather the suspicion of it actually being false than me being in denial. When it comes down to it and me being awake contemplating my issues along with questions that spawn from existential crisis I often come to conclusions and I've never denied reality or felt out of place beacause of my ''fate'' (if you want to call it that). I understand what these negative experiences has done and I understand the way I've reacted and what has happened due to them. I'm awake because I continue to ponder in order to fully understand what I'm dealing with rather than denying them. What's keeping me up is too much energy and trying to make sure I am a worthy human being that adds to society and life, rather than looking upon myself as a leech to humanity. It's kinda the opposite of denial, if that makes any sense. I just want to progress as a being.

Also; I've been prescribed Vallergan. Seems to be working. I've had a few great nights of sleep due to them.

good start...what do you believe your fate is?