i think i'm beginning to understand

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Originally Posted by veritas

You @ me? Or mods delete. Unsure what you want from me. Until then, weird flex but ok.


Let me know if you want to talk about it.

mods delete this was a joke since i am embarrassed about sharing this. the @ was to get your thoughts.

@Blas thats not the problem. if anything its the opposite, i never put it on a pedestal, if the it we are referring to is women themselves. if anything i've been a piece of shit in normal relationships, and more just a manipulative degenerate. but also those were late teens and early adulthood where i was abusing drugs and booze and was a loser all around.

i'm largely not a fan of women at all. i've never enjoyed their company, it was all a means to an end. getting in that delicious fuckhole. outside of that kick rocks i got video games to play you goofy bitch.

but i dunno what i've been feeling lately. i kinda blame it on the ho with the kid, but now other mature broads entering the fray and being cool is messing with me. but again its not so much THEM, as how I have been viewing MYSELF because of how they view me and how we've interacted.

i don't know if any of that makes sense.

3 months ago i was legit happy with life. getting pussy above my station whenever i wished. working. enjoying entertainment, games/shows/media. doing everything i wanted to do. but now its like just a deep hole of depression where i feel like i've wasted the last 5 years

but wasted on WHAT.

like what else would i have done. the obvious thing in my mind is i shouldve bedded down some broad and wifed her and lived the square life. and i feel i'm missing that. but if it wasn't for fucking being exposed to women who have there shit together, are attractive to me, and are attracted to me, i don't think my brain wouldve switched over

also my dick is hard constantly

wtf is happening

i'ma go fuck somebody up