Depersonalization

[Lenox]

Emotional depth lacking,
a basket case sadly, sadness & blackness - the definition of imagining.
socially drenched disaster.
momma, i think my pack was laced.
Senses filled with senseless banter..
I’m sober but it doesn’t matter,
Somethings wrong I think.
Sanity dancing on the brink,
schizophrenic chatter & developing cancer was all I could think.
This ‘disease’ will belong as long as I think.
Gonna need more than water & a sink.
Brain chemistry fried,
maybe I was never alive.
But what’s ‘alive’ when yours eyes are desensitized.
outside world resembles a virtual reality,
Inside world I battle with self like acid casualties.
On the battlefield. Anxiety shackles me.
Battered, bashing me bashfully.
Disaster-piece.
..sadness..
..sleep..