im considering suicide...

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Originally Posted by The Dead Poet

Maybe stop drinking first and see how you feel after awhile. This is just the opinion from an outsider that comes in a thread to find the first two pages edited out most likely because a drunk woke up like "wtf did I post?

Might be time to lace them drinking shoes up and toss them over the telephone wire of sobriety.

yeah I know... I quit doing drugs other than smoking from time to time... like 8 years ago or so. Never drank before that other than if my girlfriend/friends drug me to a bar or a party once a month or whatever, and usually then I couldn't even control it. I'd get fucked even in situations that it didn't make sense, but that was legit once sometimes less, sometimes twice a month but you get it. Not often, and I didn't even like it.


I quit doing drugs and I had some legal issues prior, nothing major. Though... slowly started to drink... progressed into daily... multiple DUI's and assaults, prison... drank the day I got out and everyday since, other than the 90 days I was on an alcohol ankle tether.

But yeah I agree with you 5:30 am here now I didn't get up until like 3pm today and neglected my daughter and girlfriend was supposed to go to something that I didn't go to. But thing is... almost all were forced but i've been to ... roughly 200 AA/NA meetings, hate that shit. A lot of medical detox's and 4 different 30+ day rehabs. Been prescribed prozac/fluoxetine... gabapentin... lexapro... its all depression meds.

All that aside i've never been sober by personal choice since I was a little kid.. and it is as easy as just say no... but its not that easy. But yeah base level, my girl will leave me eventually, i'll lose my daughter and have to completely mind foggy fend for myself, which I can do... but it won't be long before jail or prison.