Eyegasms

[Saint]

ChasinReveries: "In the life of..."

i’ve traversed the world’s ‘surface’ as just another average teen,
who hasn’t seen the hands of fate sew damaged seams
…patched together to bandage me. My trivial quilt of tragedy…
has left me safe, but…I feel like I just have to see the agonies of humanity
introduce my mind to insanity and conduct a soliloquy amongst vanity
sometimes I think I’d rather be a troubled kid so I can experience hardship
and step over obstacles armed with new knowledge to harness…
look ahead and only see darkness...overcome the odds, seal it with a promise
..to never let the ‘other end’ interfere with my conscience…
i only hope my feelings are honest, cus dealin’ with deceit is the last thing I need..
i swear I’d sink to my knees in sync with my pleas, but I just don’t think u’d believe…
cus my life’s a high stakes round of poker, without any players,
a sugar coated topping without any layers,
lacking the flavors to leave me with a delicious remembrance…
tho I savor the moments that can accompany me when I’m livin’ with temperance,
stroking the hips of tenderness smoothly…it soothes me to experience beauty..
but truly, I can’t pretend that I know my way around this awful trend,
of following the footsteps of others…even AFTER the pathways end
I’ll just depend on the fact that tomorrow always lends a helping hand,
while the tides creep up the shore to wash away the sand

"Icy Roads"

I didn't see any rules against posting too many things....trust that i will reply to pieces regularly...

Memories flashed before me, we began to tip slowly..and I closed my eyes..
My clothes were tied to the open side of the car where I broke bones in both my thighs,
My mouth opened wide, as we approached the cliffs and foggy skies,
My body cried when I saw the remanants of the seatbelt in the place where my mommy lied,
Blood painted the windows except in the place where there was a hole.. about my father’s size,
I turned to my sister and couldn’t imagine what this looked like through a toddler’s eyes,
I didn’t bother to try to move in the seat left of me to stop the car…we were spinning to fast
Pieces of glass flew across the car and carved cuts in our backs
Luckily I sat in the front but I couldn’t turn to see what happened to my mom and my dad
The truck had passed but not before swerving and crushing the driver’s side of our car with it’s rear end,
Singing along with christmas songs we all laughed merrily as we came around the bend,
It was winter break so we were going to spend it in the moutains and the cold,
we set out upon these roads to let our exciting vaction unfold,
before we left people spoke of head on collisions when traveling upon icy roads..
I sat shotgun despite all the stories we were told
That’s just me and my conscience, trying to be bold…

Written in reverse order for those who didn't catch that

"Hard to Catch"

My expectations loom high above me,
While I sit below the calm of the storm hoping that she will love me…

You’ve always been out of my league...so I’ve waited for something more,
but perhaps now that I have the time, maybe you’ll give me some of yours?....
…And must you really be so sure, before making another commitment?
Cus u’ve said before that u’d like to stay close, but u still seem so distant
It’s strange how things can change in an instant…tho it’s been ur decision,
To cover ur inhibitions… with make up… and clothing…smiles, sins and religion..
but I uncovered you…all the parts that were hidden…
a peaceful glow came from behind the clouds…and u were no longer imprisoned.
the sun had risen…broken through… u were scared shitless…cus it was only you
…and your imperfections…so I decided to take a chance, cus I was lonely too
I knew what u were going through…but… now im hooked,
left with no escape… roped and shook…cus I took the bait..
I was too late...spent to long deciding, and u just couldn’t wait,
but I can live with that...i’ll believe in fate and whatever else works,
so I can erase my slate of regrets…and all this pain that fuckin’ hurts,
nothing feels worse… I'll wait though, I’ve grown used to it over time,
I’ll be around, dreaming you up in my mind…
cus my only hope is holding on to fantasy … where I know that you are mine.