i've been doing beats for 10 years

[2tripple0]

thats cool mate.... i like making beats it is fun.... but its also fun to like spin records on a 45 and just sit back and listen to some shit while you write something you know what i mean.... but in terms of beats anyways i feel like its hard to put in a lot of effort after you work on a beat that was just mechanically kind of discovered.... i dont know maybe i should stick to my own shit but its just like im never making any improvements... i remember like couple years ago i used to think about shit like a lot more and like made so much more effort into every moment.... idk maybe thats because i was living with my mom and dad at the time so like they could converse with me and like have a proper conversation to break down... but i dont know... now that im living on my own its like im always by myself... my mommas sister says its not bad that is being just on your own.... she says you gotta make the most but you know how my mommas sister is she either give u everything er nuthing...so its confusing ya know what i mean....

anyways this has to do with beats because in all honesty im quite aquitted to your ability to make beats for as long as you have... i have just really invested my time... and not enough of it on actual beat making... but i think im on the right road and i want to continue so thats positive even if some of the results came out kind of not like good enough for publishing er watever...