i think i'm beginning to understand

[boof]

these conflicting forces inside of you are you opening up to love and connection but feeling fear because you know you have much work to do before you deserve it as you're still essentially a pos

stoked about the soda & fast food tho. huge step

[Pharaohs Army]

Originally Posted by boof

these conflicting forces inside of you are you opening up to love and connection but feeling fear because you know you have much work to do before you deserve it as you're still essentially a pos

stoked about the soda & fast food tho. huge step

This post is really funny.

[uh-oh]

Originally Posted by boof

these conflicting forces inside of you are you opening up to love and connection but feeling fear because you know you have much work to do before you deserve it as you're still essentially a pos

stoked about the soda & fast food tho. huge step

most likely correct. i think at a base level its simple friendship. its just since its the opposite sex it has my mind weirded out. but i literally cut out all my friends, last i know it was all just heroin/pills. plus people had kids and grew up and my idea of friendship was partying legit, like wtf lets get some ho's over get booze and coke and actually party. but no one did that anymore

so pretty much depriving myself of normal human friendship and now opening up to it like 5 years later in the form of women is fuckery.

also i think a huge factor involved in all this is simple exhaustion. i've been working 5 am to 5pm alot through this time, and sleeping like 4-6 hours tops every night while doing these. which can't be good. and just the stresses of work in general and hating most my co workers so i'm barking at them during the day and then dreaming about stressful situations at night its like i never fucking leave that place

[Diode]

Originally Posted by boof

these conflicting forces inside of you are you opening up to love and connection but feeling fear because you know you have much work to do before you deserve it as you're still essentially a pos

stoked about the soda & fast food tho. huge step

[uh-oh]

me walking into the front office today

[Ghost1]

Sleep deprivation is real doggie lol

[Ghost1]

Originally Posted by uh-oh

me walking into the front office today

Gonee

[Witty]

Yeah get your sleep sorted before you do anything. I still only sleep 6 hours a night but that's enough for me...for many years I was sleeping maybe 6 hours over 3 nights and it's extremely debilitating. You will suffer from extreme depression and anxiety if you are not sleeping right. For me, once I got myself in to a regular sleeping pattern (I still have sleepless nights but not even nearly as often) other things then seemed to be much easier to change. I got a bit more optimism and self belief. You got this bro!

[Immolate]

Originally Posted by uh-oh

why people view my way of life as not, how do i put it, correct?

why

hitting pretty deep depression potholes, the problem is though, if certain people and interactions weren't happening in life now, i would still be happy and content.

people suck. i cut all my friends & family out my life. made me a lot happier. only fuck sluts on one night stands now. nobody drives my emotions but me these days i like it

basically my job has ho's coming through now. office broads and corporate chicks.

and yr complaining? lol should be celebrating

they see me running shit, ordering people around, doing twice as much work as everyone and my majestic beard and just slide out of their seats. which isn't the problem.

on gang

the problem is i enjoy their praise. one of the problems.

why is that a problem

but its weird. there is one corporate chick just throwing it at me, literally said she wants to fuck me in so many words but can't cuz her position and i almost took her in the breakroom then and there.

you shoulda. that's automatic promotion

but the problem is now im being a fag and doing shit to impress these ho's and getting in text conversations and blah blah

can't love these hos man. i know what you mean tho that happens to me every time.

i assume the average person who has normal relations with women don't have these problems,

not everybody ballin like us

but i've disconnected largely from society the past few years, and my interactions with most women have literally just been fucking. ive put too many pathways in my brain so now all i can do is overthink every normal interaction, and its crippling. also the success rate of it is killing me. usually i'll ruin something by now. but the other broad, not the one who flat out said it, does nothing but complain about her ex, how he's a piece of shit blah blah, and her current boyfriend, and she disses her current boyfriend by comparing him to me.

don't fuck a chick with a bf. they'll do all kinda sleazy shit trust me. had a bitch call the cops on me cuz i wouldnt pipe her down after she said she had a husband. luckily the cops knew what was up and just laughed as we joked about #metoo

these are ohio 7's btw.

its making me uncomfortable.

might quit my job.

@veritas

mods delete this

i'd prolly quit it tbh. but i'm an impulsive fuck. i just dumped a bitch for not responding to a txt lmao

[veritas]

Let us start simply Jim


Is it fair to say that it is natural for a man’s priorities to change as they get older?

[uh-oh]

Originally Posted by veritas

Let us start simply Jim


Is it fair to say that it is natural for a man’s priorities to change as they get older?

Sure.

[veritas]

Originally Posted by uh-oh

Sure.

Excellent.

Would it then be fair to say that when one considers where they are versus where they want to be it would be natural to feel some existential angst?

[Eŋg]

this thread has offered me surprising perspective on my life.

[uh-oh]

Originally Posted by veritas

Excellent.

Would it then be fair to say that when one considers where they are versus where they want to be it would be natural to feel some existential angst?

Absolutely.

what does one do when where they want to be is unattainable? that is another problem, but one i don't worry over because of its near impossible nature. im not as much concerned with where i want to be, as much as where i was. does this make sense? like i'm never going to be where i want to be, but i don't worry over that.

[Blas]

funniest part of this thread was immolate claiming he's happy. who the fuck are you kidding man every other post is about your life spiraling downwards lolwtf

[Immolate]

Originally Posted by Blas

funniest part of this thread was immolate claiming he's happy. who the fuck are you kidding man every other post is about your life spiraling downwards lolwtf

lmao <3

damn it's almost like someone can be happy and also recognize their sad feelings too. stupid ass dummy boy

Originally Posted by boof

these conflicting forces inside of you are you opening up to love and connection but feeling fear because you know you have much work to do before you deserve it as you're still essentially a pos

stoked about the soda & fast food tho. huge step

lmao. man if you don't get all this faggot ass SJW shit outta here fam

[Hush]

I could truly help u

Sound like me 3 years ago


But idgaf and u type a lot
Plus yea


Reasons


But Um



Friends are good okay ?

[White LGI]

If my dick wasn't African big I'd be depressed

[Inno]

simply put young god.

Don’t be scared of change. It’s natural.

People will tell you you lived your life wrong. But that’s all subjective. Your 30 something years old. Normal people have these feelings your having now at your age. The difference is your not following the current trends of what is considered socially accepted.

Your doing good bruh.

[uh-oh]

all i see is reinforcement of my opening statement if anything. i went alot of ways within the contents of this thread so maybe you are wanting me to compare it with something else i said? but my opening statement is me saying i understand why people think i'm doing it wrong, and then the post you quoted for me to compare is me saying i am unhappy with where i was when i was doing it wrong?