realest shit i ever wrote

[YDK]

I'm turning into what I never wanted to be
Like karma's finally punishing me.
I felt like an addict was something funny to see
Till I was wiping powder off my nose and made my company leave
So I could enjoy my buzz without disturbing the peace
But I was hurting on the inside; such a burden/ disease.
Now I'm learning that burning crack ain't far from a perc
When I snort em by the dozen to get my body to work.
I can't function without a discussion about
Getting high all the time till I'm cussin an shout.
The choices I've made on this road to destruction
Have done nothing but solidify every persons assumptions
I'm just an addict that can't hack it when I'm totally stressed
My life is a mess,
I can't cope without coke or a pill to ingest!
I've never been closer to sober than I am right now,
No drugs for a week so its time to bite down.
I gotta simplify everything cuz I wake up bored
But I got to much time that I need to make up for.
Get the bills paid, hit the laundry and grocery store
Actually smell fresh air as if I never noticed before.
My nose was always so full of powder and blood
That I didn't recognize the smell of my wife when we hugged.
The sweetest scents in the world; most would call me a liar,
Was the smell of home cooked food and my daughters dirty diaper.