realest shit i ever wrote
 

I'm turning into what I never wanted to be
Like karma's finally punishing me.
I felt like an addict was something funny to see
Till I was wiping powder off my nose and made my company leave
So I could enjoy my buzz without disturbing the peace
But I was hurting on the inside; such a burden/ disease.
Now I'm learning that burning crack ain't far from a perc
When I snort em by the dozen to get my body to work.
I can't function without a discussion about
Getting high all the time till I'm cussin an shout.
The choices I've made on this road to destruction
Have done nothing but solidify every persons assumptions
I'm just an addict that can't hack it when I'm totally stressed
My life is a mess,
I can't cope without coke or a pill to ingest!
I've never been closer to sober than I am right now,
No drugs for a week so its time to bite down.
I gotta simplify everything cuz I wake up bored
But I got to much time that I need to make up for.
Get the bills paid, hit the laundry and grocery store
Actually smell fresh air as if I never noticed before.
My nose was always so full of powder and blood
That I didn't recognize the smell of my wife when we hugged.
The sweetest scents in the world; most would call me a liar,
Was the smell of home cooked food and my daughters dirty diaper.

This was dope as fuck ydk. Best thing ive read from you that i can remember. Real shit and emotionally chaged. Keep this kind of writing up. You should have put. This in the diary collab

I just wrote it last night or I would have man lol

dope. real shit. everyone has tough times man. stay focused. stay up.

I love reading stuff like this. It's weird, I been writin this way tonight. For once I'm not letting the technicality of a rhyme cage my thoughts and it feels good

You're bold and ready to put it all out there in the open...You're ready to keep clean. I've been there and admire your openness.

Edit:

"No drugs for a week..."

A few months from now will be true test...a week is the easy part.

This shit should hit a lot of people close to home (whether they know someone or is/has been there themselves) as well as being personal to you. It isn't often you can say that about personal pieces, but this one was great all around. Keep it up.

Nice piece. These are my favourite lines. Simple observations that hit home. The progression towards a more positive outlook in the verse fits the subject matter. Good work.