What a fucking Christmas this turned out to be

So i have to work, its raining and then while im at work i get called to a first aid.

Man is collapsed, blue face, very weak pulse. So straight away I check his airways and start doing cpr, his colour returned and he started making tiny little noises. Im pumping away and giving this guy air, for about ten minutes straight until paramedics arrive, even then im still assisting with chest pumps.

They shocked this guy approx 15 times with the defib, gave him adreniline etc, then pronounced him dead as his colour went back to blue.

He wasnt even that old, maybe 60? What a fucking Christmas.

At least I kept him alive until the paramedics came...