Who am I

[Mercy]

What am I? A corrupt kid, lone and perturbed
Only a lost soul that's roaming the earth
I chose to be left alone but I'm only disturbed
With my choices and these voices.. holding me cursed
What do I deserve? Happiness, compassion at heart
A boost in life to help me and come back to this art
Music is an escape, I break through it and change
It's joy, my voice, and helps me move through the day
When I listen, it takes me to a beautiful place
I'm satisfied with life as it feels soothing with grace
But it's a fantasy, I'm trapped, loathing living this way
I feel detached, reality is drifting away...
Who can I reach out to to vent?
What can I change to be blessed?
What do I have to accept in order to pass through the stress?
I've climbed miles of mountains, ain't seen the last of it yet
I feel I've met my only success in gasping for breath...