02-09-2019, 05:16 PM | #1 |
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Where the Story Begins
Where The Story Begins
Addiction stole my prime, a whole chunk of my life Its gone forever now and I still suffer the strife Everyday’s still a struggle I struggle to get it right Just praying and hoping to see a tunnel to the light Im humble when I write, see by faith not by sight Think about it every time Im stuck at a stoplight Will I veer off to the right and go back to my old ways Mind telling me lies that lead right to the cold days Disguised as a gold blaze, I suck up the sun rays Talk to God for a second - snap outta my numb haze Not dealing with the pain pills but the pain goes on.. Im jobless at 31 and all of my friends are gone Sometimes I just wish I had someone to hold me tight As I sit here by myself on another lonely night They said it’d get better and sometimes it does But there aint never going back to the way things was I got faith ill find serenity, im forever pacing searchin While in the back of my mind theres always cravings lurkin Sometimes I hate this person, truly its been a burden People judge me for what I am before I even get a word in In this life theres nothin certain, I wish I could get away All those years being lead astray has left a price to pay I’m grateful to be sober each and every day But how do you explain a 10 year gap on the resume? I could never hold a job for long throughout my addiction Hang around til things got bad and they got bad its a given The disease progresses and you cant manage how your livin Your damaged and just wishin you werent in this condition If you call in sick again you know youll lose your position But your out of options so you just disappear and go missin Now your jobless, broke, highly addicted and fucked.. Withdrawal starts to kick in and your life fuckin sucks! Now your backs against the wall so you finally ask for help And they send you to rehab hoping you’ll comeback as yourself A second chance at life! And all the hope that it brings Until your back on your feet and your mind starts to swing You got it this time, you have the will power to stay strong You’ll be fine if you only take a few and not for too long Then truth smashes you in the face and proves you so wrong And your back in this place again with hope all gone In and out of rehab, over and over... Nobody understands why you just cant stay sober This disease was ganna kill me until I hit an obstacle I almost died that night and woke up inside a hospital Worst experience of my life I had tears in my eyes But lookin back now it truly was a blessing in disguise Almost dying was my bottom and that's what it took.. To find myself deep inside of the big book I met God and I was free from the shackles that bound me But in truth its the other way around cuz God Found me Its amazing all the grace and glory he sends But this isn't where it ends this is where the story begins.. |
02-09-2019, 05:48 PM | #2 |
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You should give yourself more credit for kicking your addiction. I don't think god had anything to do with it.
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02-10-2019, 07:02 AM | #3 |
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Your multies are off in parts but whatever, emotion wise it resonates...Post more bro, a lot of cats will feed realism, believe that...
Stay up my friend. |
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