08-14-2019, 02:00 AM | #1 |
White Earl
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@lars ...??? Maybe this
Entry 1
at the library at the moment, as you know its hard for the kid heart in a million pieces, and women want no parts of the shit my lifes parked in a ditch, flipped, i need a jump-start and a lift trying to fix shit before its too late, and realizing that it already is expression on her face says it all, i bet shes calling it quits ain't gotta talk, saw all the hints, clenched up, balling her fists doesnt matter who's fault this all really is, im already pissed ripped, about to kill each other n' forfeit our kids guardianship the bitch says i blow smoke up her ass, and im hardly the shit if you cant take the cig, what you doin with a whole carton of it i mean, pardon my french, but your fucking ass is lazy as hell plus, your bipolar as shit, i guess i must'a been crazy as well got these fuckin prescription drugs in a safe, we'll sellem quick she looked at me and said nigga, your a waste of inteligence i fell in my seat, beat, so tired from the aggravation im facin' stay bent out of shape, a contortionist, afraid of complacence Entry 2 At home as i sit on the couch, pimpin it out My girls bitchin, im thinkin my dicks about as big as her mouth A difference of opinion is the normal excuse And im surrounded by assholes, who think majority rules Now im sort of immune, to the blows, and stupid displays If you call this falling in love, then you show it in unusual ways Moved in days ago, so im apartments and efficiency hunting Broke, so im tryin arrange, that doesnt mean ive driven one -dummy Living this bummy life, sacrifice, this bad predicaments real When we eat out, its sandwiches smack in the midddle of fields Has a prisoner feel to it, reclusive, laying low on the grid And i havnt seen food in weeks when we open the fridge Theres a total eclipse of emotions, it hits whenever we speak Short conversation, silence, but arguments will never be brief A passionate relief, sexy release, intercourse, fucking around.. Pulled my head out of my ass, its just stuck in the clouds Entry 3 Found out my headgasket bid me fucking adieu Cars a goddamn money pit, and im bout to jump in it to!!! Thats jus wonderful news, as if i had the funds to abuse Feel like a murder spree, then suicide with the gun that i used Need something to do, to keep my mind off the shit thats been thrown Its realities like this, that make a mans christmas a joke I cant tell the kids that im broke, or that im jammed in a slump That imma rob a bank, to get them what they told santa they want That my hands might get cuffed, cause im tired of poor living What goes around comes around, but my child support didnt !!! I'll get violent before i sit down and cry about my predicament the shit im in, could complain all day to find out that nobodies listenin' No one that gives a shit, is ever in the fucking cirlce of friends Thats why i cut so many off, so they can never fucking hurt you again Absurd to the end, but one way or another ima figure this out The world aint put a foot in it, they left me with a kick in the mouth Entry 4 Im in starbucks, busted, so i aint drinkin thier stuff Brink of destruction, drinkin a redbull, wings of a glutton Only here cause im bored and its simple amusement Would go home, but only somebody with this can do it Ive wittnessed the worst life could ever throw at me, yet.. You take away my air, and expect me to live holding my breath Best of the best have come and gone, i fucked some of'em to I never make love, i treat sex like theres something to prove Rude, never really been good at this relationship shit But my experience makes easier, to walk away from this bitch Both our patience is this, her kids must've lived in a stable Nd im hungry as hell, cause she aint bringing shit to the table Lack of communication, its only during sex we get close She be growling, screaming and cussing, like shes emily rose My only memory, sitting here, thinking what have i done.. So bad to deserve a lifestyle a bum wouldnt want Entry 5 At the mall, man, skinny jeans became the ugliest swag That shit was so yesterday, but kids are stuck in the past Im shuffling fast, swear securities staulking like im a thief Either you think i stole something, or u'd like me to leave Said a bmx was lost, you think i got a bike up my sleave? You cant fully doubt someone that you slightly believe And here i thought, stereotyping's only racially fuelled Told'em put the handcuffs on, or get away from me dude Was bout to lose my patience then thier radios chirped Nd when we get done, were filing complaints on you jerks This holidays for the birds, been nothing but stressed out Saw officers yelled at later, bitch, whos under arrest now What goes up comes down, and might land on your head Guess karma's some true shit, that really can be your friend We left the register, bought shit we had to carry outside Got to my car and it was keyed, there was death in my eyes
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