I don't see a way out...

[~RustyGunZ~]

He’s already dead Ouch. It’s too late.

[Amen]

Originally Posted by Da Brayn Lord

He’s already dead Ouch. It’s too late.

Lol

[Ouch]

he's my boy and my brother killed himself... call my number I should delete that no one called me....


but I really do love finny.... he makes some good music... but lets get real to actually make a life livig off it... nah...

[Aero]

Originally Posted by Finnydot

I know it's cliche... Looking for help online. Most of you have been pretty rough to me over the years. But i just don't see a way out of this. I've tried medication again recently. But with me borrowing thousands of dollars from family to get into this apartment. Now I've lost it within 3 months. I know i did it to myself.

But i miss my son every day. I still have dreams where his mother and i are still together. Then i wake up and its just a system shock every day. I told myself that if i relaxed a couple weeks after getting fired in November that i could find work and still make rent. Then December goes by and i went through the holidays telling family i was still working and not to worry. Then i got served in January to evict and borrowed money from the Mormon church to make it till the end of the month. I only needed 500 before yesterday. I could have done that 2 months ago easy.

Then at the last minute yesterday i just let it happen.

I was living with my brother before this place. He's an asshole. I swear I'd rather die than be homeless or go back there.

But to talk to my other brothers about coming to stay with them after borrowing all this money to get in, that's almost as bad as living with an abusive drunk.

I'd just as soon rather not wake up. I probably have till Monday. I'm going to church tomorrow to let it all go. I'm going to finally tell the truth after months of hiding.

I know what you're all going to say. It's the easy way out. I'd be a terrible person to do that to my family and especially my son. It's some bitch shit. I know.

But I'm telling you man... Most of us kind of grew up together. You probably know a lot more about me than you should.

I can't continue like this. I've tried to "man up". I've tried to grab myself by my bootstraps and pull myself out of this 100 times. Every... Fucking... Time.... I fall on my face. And there's no one else to blame.

Medication couldn't fix me. Hospitalization couldn't fix me. Counselling couldn't fix me. Hell... Having a kid couldn't fix me. I couldn't fix myself. Falling in love couldn't fix me. I tried church again too. I've prayed. I've cried. I've smashed shit. I've written about it. Its always the same.

I always end up here.

I'm done.

You have a son. It's not about you anymore. Life has its ups and downs for everyone but the key is to be GRATEFUL for what you do have. You're alive, you have your mind, your child and the ability to generate income.

Some people wish they had your problems. Imagine that. You've got to start by being grateful. Also realize EVERYONE has their shit.

You will be fine. You will work hard and you will overcome any setbacks.

[Ouch]

sleep it off my dude, im not completely happy where i'm at either... and I have a daughter... just don't kill yaself man like I said my brother did it... and he was a better ball player than I was, had better looking girl than I had.. and then BOOM.. just don't do it

[Ouch]

a lot more people care about you than you think

[Ouch]

i've thought about suicide.. only a few people in this world actually would care, my daughter, my ex... my dad and my mom who I haven't seen in years.... and I feel sorry to say fuck all of them I don't even care...... but if you kill yourself its a bad thing, more people love you than you know

and if its a big deal about money, let me know I'll give you $500 just because I like you and have known you forever... i'll paypal you $500 right now

[Ouch]

and infinity I love you man, and if you need some money I got you... max of 500$... I know 500$ can't get you very far but if you for real need it i'll send it to you man

[Amen]

This guy ^ is having a psychological melt down over Finny.

Both on suicide watch.

[Pakistani Hand Cannon]

Originally Posted by Amen

This guy ^ is having a psychological melt down over Finny.

Both on suicide watch.

Showing the nigga some consideration is having a psychological meltdown?

You dunce shut your hoe ass up.

Anyway...

Originally Posted by Aero

You have a son. It's not about you anymore. Life has its ups and downs for everyone but the key is to be GRATEFUL for what you do have. You're alive, you have your mind, your child and the ability to generate income.

Some people wish they had your problems. Imagine that. You've got to start by being grateful. Also realize EVERYONE has their shit.

You will be fine. You will work hard and you will overcome any setbacks.

This.

Gratitude. Be thankful for the little shit. There's regular shit we have that we take for granted...its hard to see sometimes, true enough...but it is there. Requires a shift in perspective & not a woe is me attitude. Focus more on appreciating what you do have rather than what you dont.

Also the dark times aint shit but an opportunity to learn. If you constantly take the view of being a victim you aint gonna learn shit. Its all lessons.

& On the note of suicide. Nigga...the one thing we all got coming to us is death. Slow the fuck down a second, dont be rushin. The struggle literally cant last forever. & In the meantime maybe there's some shit for you to learn, go through & grow through in this bitch.

Stop looking for shit outside to "fix" you nigga. & Look the fuck inwards and find out why you feel broken in the first place.

[Ouch]

Originally Posted by Amen

This guy ^ is having a psychological melt down over Finny.

Both on suicide watch.

Nah homie, I don't know him close like that but I know he's been around on these forums as long if not longer than I have.

And I had a brother kill himself unlike this he never threatened or talked about it, it was just a shotgun to the head. 18 years old, just graduated high school, did it with a shotgun because you can't buy a handgun until ya 21. It was out of blue. It was over a girl, but if you kill yaself over a girl there is obviously something wrong with you, i've had my heart broke too and didn't shoot myself with a shotgun.

And so I take these things more seriously than many people without personal experience would. So eat a dick.

and Finny if you're still here and its a matter of you not making your rent or something, I will send you right now, i'm here.. a few hundred I know thats not a long term solution but, short term I will send it right now.

[Amen]

Originally Posted by Ouch

i've had my heart broke too and didn't shoot myself with a shotgun.

I’ve lost relatives and very close friends to suicide. It’s a cowardly thing to do however, you should consider it.

Obsessed & desperate weirdo.

[Victor.]

Originally Posted by Amen

I’ve lost relatives and very close friends to suicide. It’s a cowardly thing to do however, you should consider it.

Obsessed & desperate weirdo.

Maybe one of your kids will do it


High school can be depressing with a overbearing fag for a dad

[Amen]

Originally Posted by Victor.

Maybe one of your kids will do it


High school can be depressing with a overbearing fag for a dad

Depressing if you don’t do shit, maybe. Life is what you make it.

Lol @ fag for a dad.

Confuse my kids with your KID. At least you could share clothes with your kid, now. Rather then wearing the shit your chick no longer fits in.

[Ouch]

Originally Posted by Amen

I’ve lost relatives and very close friends to suicide. It’s a cowardly thing to do however, you should consider it.

Obsessed & desperate weirdo.

Thats cool, I hope you aren't a grown man. My brother committed suicide and its very personal to me.

And lets just be honest you wouldn't talk to me like this in real life, i'd hurt you. And you wouldn't normally anyway.

[Finnydot]

I appreciate the love y'all. I'm straight till Monday. That's when i figure out where the hammer gon fall.

[Destroyer]

That’s not the environment we are referring to, Lars
We’re talking about the mindset that he’s stuck in that keeps him going from employed to jobless, from sheltered to homeless. That’s the environment he’s stuck in. That of one who is always down on his luck. We’re not saying, “hey, walk from the rock to the tree, and you’ll be all better!” We’re saying, start with holding a job for 6 months, work on an apt then, maybe find a roommate first. We’re saying change the way you live and feel, not make a Brexit. I see where the confusion comes from. Just a heads up.

[~RustyGunZ~]

gUyS hEs LotErLoLy chaNgiNG hIS EnVirOnmeNT

[PancakeBrah]

Sorry to hear about your plight, Finnydot.

Typically what helps me during times of feeling blue is having online avatars say 'Keep your head up, man' or 'Be grateful for what you have', and reading petty online arguments about Discord chats. Try doing that.

[Victor.]

Originally Posted by PancakeBrah

Sorry to hear about your plight, Finnydot.

Typically what helps me during times of feeling blue is having online avatars say 'Keep your head up, man' or 'Be grateful for what you have', and reading petty online arguments about Discord chats. Try doing that.

Lol



Best wishes finnski