02-02-2020, 11:04 PM | #41 | |
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And I had a brother kill himself unlike this he never threatened or talked about it, it was just a shotgun to the head. 18 years old, just graduated high school, did it with a shotgun because you can't buy a handgun until ya 21. It was out of blue. It was over a girl, but if you kill yaself over a girl there is obviously something wrong with you, i've had my heart broke too and didn't shoot myself with a shotgun. And so I take these things more seriously than many people without personal experience would. So eat a dick. and Finny if you're still here and its a matter of you not making your rent or something, I will send you right now, i'm here.. a few hundred I know thats not a long term solution but, short term I will send it right now. |
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02-03-2020, 01:48 AM | #42 |
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@Finnydot it took years for doctors to find the right combination and milligrams of meds to fit my needs, and it was an emotionally trying process. Unfortunately it’s not exactly a science. But once I landed, the first thing I thought about was “holy shit this must be how normal people feel.” Balance. Not crying over everything and being unable to stop. Way less anxiety attacks and not so deep of a depression spell. Pride has hit now and again and I tried weaning myself off, which was a terrible idea. Over the years I learned this is what I needed to do to stay right.
But it’s not just that, life requires coping skills. Situational depression and anxiety will obviously still occur. I’ve put holes in walls before despite being properly medicated. I go to the gym 3 tines a week to keep that kinda shit at bay. I work 40 hours a week and going to school for something I love. And I keep 2 good friends close for when I’m going through it and need to vent out morbid humor with someone who understands. Joking about your own trauma may not be healthy in the eyes of “normal” people but I can say it’s helped me not take myself so seriously. Attitude matters. I’ve been in some pretty dark places in my life and I can’t tell you how many times I’ve looked back (after getting to the light at the end of the tunnel) and thinking man, I’m so glad I didn’t sabotage the fuck out of everything when I was goin through it. Sorry to ramble. I’m in my phone so it’s hard to write. I got a dinky little iPhone 5SE over here. Vintage |
02-03-2020, 02:22 AM | #43 | |
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I got addicted to drugs, pills... oxycontin at first, then all opiate pills and heroin for years. I quit that, I think its been like 9 years, but once I quit that I started drinking which prior I never drank except maybe like once a month if my girlfriend dragged me to a party or a bar. Maybe even less than once a month. But now I drink every single day and I've been to multiple different rehabs.. and talked to multiple different levels of shrinks and therapists. Doesn't work. But my point is they diagnosed me with long term depression... gave me prozac.. and also a ton of other meds gabapentin was one i think, like 3 or so others, none of them being abuseable meds... and none of them worked but like I said I was never stone cold sober when I took them. To me though drugs aren't the answer I'm not saying it can't help some people and when I've tried them I was fucked up anyway so I wasn't dealing with a clean slate... but I don't think its the answer |
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02-03-2020, 02:25 AM | #44 |
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keeping physically active and keeping a sleep/wake up regime to me is much more important and will go a long way.... jog, go to work, wake up at a certain time, go to sleep at a certain time... it'll do a lot for your mental health
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02-03-2020, 02:33 AM | #45 |
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and i'm talking to myself as much as anyone else, for perspective... imgaine the last time you got really drunk, felt like an asshole and hardly remembered what you said, woke up with a hang over... now imagine doing that every single day... thats what I do... every day for years
and @Bodey one thing you might be missing is though, that even if someone wanted to get on depression meds or whatever... here in MURICA you can't do it unless you have money |
02-03-2020, 02:52 AM | #46 |
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@Finnydot --- if you don't have a physical dependence on drugs or alcohol, you're way ahead of the game... ahead of the game i'm playing.
So it's just routine is key man jog everyday at a certain time and try to go to sleep at a certain time even if you aren't working. Me personally i'm all over the place based on work, and if i'm not working I might go to sleep at 5am and wake up at 1pm.. whatever the case may be and its not good... easier said than done but if you don't have a substance abuse issue then would be way easy to get ya shit straight, for me at least |
02-03-2020, 02:54 AM | #47 |
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Nigga. Get a good job that pays ur support and still allows you to pay rent. Once u find that u will be surprised how hard it is to fuck that up. Eapecially if its a cake ass job like i found. I got lucky. But still. I used to be exactly like you. Probably worse dude. Cause i was out breaking law like a mother fucker to support my habits and wilding out. But it all balanced out to have a bad job man. Not being able to provide for yourself even though you work a 9-5 takes a heavier toll mentally then you even realize. And once you find better. Something that actually allows you to pay rent and feed yourself even after child support. Well. Thats when u man the fuck up cause its either man up or go right back where u were. Shit. Idk. Folks may dissagree. But you need a better job dude.
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02-03-2020, 03:19 AM | #48 | |
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My job that I have here, as a convicted felon is pretty good.. but it basically can't be done when the ground is frozen. And its frozen a lot, and so I supplment my income with doing some illegal things.... but the bottom line is theres no public housing here... I support my daughter and girlfriend on what I do, no government assistance. Am I happy no, am I depressed a lot of the time yes... I hate everyone including myself. But still its possible to move around and do things. |
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02-03-2020, 05:29 AM | #49 | |
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02-03-2020, 05:46 AM | #50 |
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lol if you're serious wow.. I was always afraid of taking viagra... like im not young, but i'm not old... and I have no dick problems, I always thought that if I took a vigara my shit would be hard for like 2 days and I couldn't go to work or wahtever
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02-03-2020, 05:47 AM | #51 |
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weird that viagra scares me more than actual drugs
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02-03-2020, 06:20 AM | #52 |
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Not viagra..
A dick pill/energy supplement called libido max. I still take them from time to time for that extra rush of energy and shit. Shit gets you pumped. And you tear pussy walls down extra on them shits. Real talk. Lmmfao @sraL. U got a good memmory fool lmao Nah i had a heroin habit..opiod in general habit, basically. But heroin was easoest to get. So ya
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High school can be depressing with a overbearing fag for a dad
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Lol @ fag for a dad. Confuse my kids with your KID. At least you could share clothes with your kid, now. Rather then wearing the shit your chick no longer fits in. |
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Wish death on ppl sure that karma won’t hit your children
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Oh ok.
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What happened to you having a kid hush? Karma kill it for telling people on rap forums you’d fuck their toddlers?
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