Loads of baggage

[Just Write]

Yea I know.... I come with loads of baggage
But if truth be told I'm just a hopeless romantic
Can't even remember a moment, I wasn't this totally damaged
So now I just sit back, smoke, and try to cope with the madness
I'm trying to grab ahold of ever emotion i've shattered
Guess you can say I'm just one of those over emotional bastards
Never been one to drink but lately I've been lonely and plastered
Looking for something to console my lost and broken stature.
Fuck... I don't even know if it matters, but i'm feeling so awfully alone
Lately i just wander around, never felt so lost in a home
Now that anxiety's gone, depressions taken it's place
It's like Each seconds an hour and each hours a day
I'm so sick of the pain... my god I just wanna live free!
Why is the only time I feel alive when I sleep?
Its like a disease, that is slowly eating me whole
I've contemplated death but I'm not ready to go
Life use to be perfect, i couldn't wait to come home
Excited to share with you everything that I owned
On our days off, how I'd lay with you lavishly...
the way you would laugh with me..
It was like each day was a masterpiece.
I tried to fight for us, i admit i prayed you'd come back to me
prayed you'd come after me...
But all I got was a blank face, a stanger conveying her apathy
I guess that it's back to me just doing my thing
Now we're each in different corners on opposite sides of a ring
Fighting like we never meant a single thing to each other
A broken dream, and loneliness, til' emotions recover.

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