higher thoughts

[Nameflip]

never thought I would see this much
let alone breathe this much
pain disguised as a smile, made fun of as a child
said I read too much
got depressed and picked up the books
depression eased a bit
read Harry potter in one summer
so you can guess how that season went
I seen these kids
moms and dads with their pride and joy around a restaurant table
until I was 9, pops was nothing more than a fable
all his pride and joy went into a rock in a pipe
he still cherishes that shit man he's just not living right
but fuck that I'ma dead that topic he's not worth the rap
he's out of my life now, and I never want him back
besides..
I look in the mirror and all I see is him
I'm sorry y'all my brains running
thoughts leak with the pen
with the stain of ink on my skin
no cartoon creatures but the animated creatures
gettin rich off a single and a handful of features
motherfucler I ain't got neither just ether
melt hiphop in a spoon, stick it in my vein
then the chemicals react with the words in my brain

third eye open puts the pen in motion
got a bottle full of hope I toss that shit in the ocean
hopefully, it gets picked up by somebody that needs it
put my stress on paper if you ask how I relive it
believe it