i.E. - Dear Angel..

[Saint]

"Envy"

James Evans; the most popular kid in school. The rich family, the hot chicks, the cool kids looking up to him. Good grades, he did everything the best. Most popular in the whole neighborhood. Then a kid named Payson Envy, the total opposite, this a story about what jealousy can do to you.

Crying through out nights, for me that’s how all days ended
There is no denying the envy I had for this kid James Evans
Laid back nights enjoying life, I mean who needs school shiit….
I wasn’t worried about grades; I wanted to be a cool kid
I wanted to be cool and live in a fortress and be unhurt able
The kid showing up to school in brand new porches & convertibles
But I wasn’t, I would lock myself away, and just sit in fear
Why couldn’t I be cool?! So to you I jot down my crippled tears

..Ahem

One day I’ll just die in my nightmares, somebody just bomb dreams
Couldn’t take being over looked by the popular obnoxious prom king
I looked around the house for weapons; I found a gat and some pliers
Went down to the school parking lot, found his car and flattened his tires
Bell hits three; out he comes with a varsity jacket and the fly chicks
Some white bitch, oh how badly I just wanted to be his sidekick
But he never went to this car, but I could see him partly in sight
That’s when I heard that there was going to be a party tonight
& He was attending, that night I was going to feel imperial
I would show him that this nobody was friend material
Pulled up in my beetle & then I saw him come out of his Porsche
AHHHh! That’s it!! I cant fucking to take this shit anymore!!
I ran up to him quickly just while he was greeting his friends
Straight jabbed him in the mouth, now he was meeting the fence
I couldn’t seem to stop attacking him, I felt someone kick
And by the time I got off him, my hands were bloody fist
All these years of envy, now I should dare smile?!
I wanted everything…
His clothes, his chicks & kicks, I even wanted his hairstyle!
Forget being cool, I was hated – now I felt dead alone
Visiting the grave, with the words James Evans on the headstone

I want everything he has!! I Cant Live Without Him!!

Digged up the coffin, took a gun – now you have to ask this…
Is Envy so strong that its got me willing to share this niccuhs casket?

R.I.P – James Evans. 1985 – 2002.
R.I.P – Payson Envy. 1987 - 2002