maturing

[big baby]

it's up for existential debate. whether or nots
we're here for a reason, or stranded here just to rot
leisurely lonesomes, sunrise kingdom unfolding
delicate flower, nuclei destined forever in forest
do or die sentiments. sediment ready to rise
blood pact suicide, toes in the sand in the tide
were only in focus when we start to succeed
congratulations/shaking hands to hands shaking in sleep
panic attack, borderline personality disorder
solace in silence. everyday a soldier is dying
PTSD from maturing too fast. i've been told to collide
with my demons. flashback, detachment paranoia. decide
what do with yourself, paranormal dishevelment
clash encounter to delusion like an asteroid belt
entering earth, atmospheric phenomena avoided like hell
poised to no end, with no end to foretell
such a pity. holy shit. shame we all have stories to tell
100 ears. nobody listens. pouring whiskey in wells
swirl it in the glass, little tornado cyclone, perhaps
we tell it with such hope, rehearsed, to speak it with ease
oh how we change for others -sleep with our demons for free
beelzebub pedigree. honeybee to a wasp
fur elise. Elysium waits with alyssum in her palm
this suggests to me, what i've known all along
kiss of death, pain is strength, literally everyy song
diet plan. exercise, what's your secret to looking your best?
don't eat for days, ha-ha. pause. i said it in jest
capricorn, libra, maelstrom pathogen, fetal position
battle ballistic, garrison mission. administer oil in my cannabis christen
cataclysmic mushroom smoke. cultured difference aside
there's more to living, so to speak, than living to die
unambiguous chameleon, dressed in camo fatigue
in his pavilion, that the big wolf blows at til he can barely breathe
grow in a melting pot, petri dish human experiment
give him truancies, periods of time where truth is empirical
hold me a second. let's grow apart, don't second guess it
stare at me like a tornado looks at tulsa and edmond
then