this one

[big baby]

hurts

I’m breathing fire
but I’m not a dragon
an average person. swallowed matches
ran across a sea of stars in moon boots. army canvass
the catalyst sparks. deactivate the manned fuselage
tight-lipped gargantuan who stares through the art,

for hours (or it seems)
want to be touched but wince when you do
slight grimace, sly indication, it’s a bit too obtuse
the allusion, that any minute now it might finish
what do you mean when you insinuate that nows not the time?
postponed rain checks. outside in rain boots thousand of times
acid wash downpour. denim daiquiri stain
reticle strain, bloodshot battlefield. blades
where does it start, devilish ear to ear grin
started the year with resolutions hand in heart
fear to be seen alone, energy i’ve barely consumed
jumpstart my heart battery; only bleed for you
tomfoolery. doomed to the usual norms
how do i map out directions when my satellite is depressed
crop circle on fire. what a fiery mess
tried to find myself but i was lost in what i left in you
that 1800 hotline already memorized my

number

will somebody listen
snowflake with their pillows drenched
day dream outrunning this avalanche
give everyone the attention i seek
when it’s returned to me, he barely speak
don’t want it. just want these hands to stop drowning me
every night before sleep, i tell them to leave
they peek over my canopy bed until three
in the morning