Hahaha, love your questions man. Don't assume that everyone listening to hiphop and posting on these boards do drugs. Sorry to dissapoint you, but here we go:
1. Haha, nah man. I'm perfectly fine. No head injuries of any sort alltho' it may seem like it.
2. No real drug habits. Weed once in a blue moon, the only thing it does is making me sleep better (White Rhino ftw). The problem is that it's expensive as fuck around here. Never done any hard drugs. Just weed on rare occasions with friends. In seventh grade my godmothers ex died by OD'ing. Aint fucking with that shit.
3. I've been prescribed Circadin wich is a weak as fuck sleep medication (melatonin) and doesn't help me at all. Was given anti-depressive pills a few years ago, don't remember the brand but it scared me. When I was on it a good friend of mines mom offed herself and I couldn't care less. That made me more sad than anything else. The therapist quit working while I was on them. I decided to quit the meds without weekly consultations, wich is not only dangerous, but also illegal in Norway. When I was quitting them the moodswings was crazy, I could be suicidal as fuck for an hour and be in euphoria the next. 3 weeks of that and it was out of my system. You'd have to force me to try meds like that again.
What sucks is being awake at 02:58am (like now) without being tired enough to sleep, but tired enough to not do anything worthwhile. I consider myself a basement dweller because of this. I go out with friends 2-3 times a week at most, mostly to get drunk or skate with a bunch of people. The rest of the week I'm seriously too tired to do anything at all. I guess I'm lucky to have a huge group of friends I can chill with even with the issues I'm having. Without them I'm certain I'd feel lonely and worthless as well (I do feel that nothing really matters, but I look upon myself as equal among my peers, there's a difference).
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Split: Word @ regular excercise. I'd do that shit if I wasn't too tired to even go outside 80% of the time. I have tried to be active during daytime as it's supposed to make you tired at night, in my case it doesn't. I'm speculating that I might have a higher brain activity than most. At one point I woke up at 08:00 AM, went out to skate for 8 hours, got home, couldn't sleep, went out to skate for 5 hours the next day and couldn't sleep until 3AM. And at times I can be exhausted by just taking out the trash cuz I had a bad night of sleep after being awake for 48 hours prior to sleeping. My energy for each day depends solely on when I fall asleep and how I'm sleeping. Sometimes I have to cancel appointments because I'm too tired to do anything, often because I haven't slept the night before. Also one of the reasons to why I'm not going to a therapist atm. to sort things out with a professional. It's crazy to live like this.
03-11-2013, 12:04 AM
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