All You Need Is A Harness & A Baseball Bat

[Mr. J]

Mixed messages lay in the mirror above us..
my potpourri, Glenn Close to my Michael Douglas
red stains create a raft riding this river of tears
a mental breakdown that arose my physical fears
your eyes darkened while you felt pitiful...yea...
but tonight was different, you had your stars arranged
the clearest of Vodka & expressions across your face.
a happiness that I have never ever forgotten...strange
the fading silhouette & what your aura became...
Sorceress of rage, a mixer of potions & elixers
drunken until the doctor saw the erosion in your liver.
& I could only think of all the lies & hoaxes they give ya.
back & forth of insurance playing the monkey in the middle.
is it civil? my eyes can hardly focus on my dinner.
Im sickened. driven to insanity by these little triggers.
every second passing you really start bugging me.
the sarcasm that drips out when you suck your teeth
but...I love how you fuck with me, it drives me...
it calms & soothes me, & leaves me smiling.
a kindness enters your eyes that keeps me guessing
the words whispered from your lips sound of Nietzsche lessons
& as it all becomes inaudible...
I can feel myself give my all to you....