roses

[YDK]

I'll leave the roses at your door,
I know that I care
But I don't know if I'm supposed to anymore
My hearts sore and I can't even go to the store
Without losing my composure when I open the door
Because I see your face taped to the wall in a picture
I don't need to read the obituary to know that I miss ya.
You and your daughter were 2 beautiful things
And that was before you died and you were granted your wings.
But now that your gone I can't imagine what your family's going through
It's hard enough to lose someone you love and they're dealing with losing 2!
Damn,
I just wish that I could tell em all that it gets easier with time
But I've lost family before and I ain't even over mine.
When your heart breaks it don't heal it just toughens it up
To the point that your scared to love because nothings enough
So loving is rough, always scared about who you're gonna lose next,
A bruised neck shows signs of using a nuse to improve sex
But that's just a lie that you tell
Cuz you're scared to admit that you ain't tie the knot tight before you fell.
Kick the chair out from underneath of your feet
While your crying to God wondering "why it couldn't be me!"
But no matter what you do the pain only gets worse
Cuz all you think about is trading places with the person in the hearse
Nothing you do will work there ain't away to go back in time
And even if there were you couldn't stop em from dyin.
Cuz chances are if they loved you even half as much as you loved them
They'd trade places back with you and you'd be sitting here crying again.
So you can't fuckin tell me that the depression will fade
Because I've been dealing with it for years just crying at different graves.
So instead of crying every day and letting depression win
Get off of your ass an remember that you're doing it for them.
Enjoy the life you got and love everybody around you
And let the roses that I left at the door surround you
Let them be a reminder of a better time with the people that you lost
And when those roses die and the last petal drops
Let it be the same day that your tears finally stop.
Life is for the living and I know this to be true
So cherish the ones you love, before they're the ones that I'm sending these roses to.