Thoughts of Rebecca

[H4ZE]

I think I posted the original version on here months ago, but recently I decided to rewrite some of my old shit that had good topics to bring it to the level I'm at now. Also this will be part of my mix tape I'm working on, I just ordered my recording equipment the other day.

Thoughts of rebecca:
[Rebecca's thoughts]
been bullied most of my life, called a whore and a slut
They tell me I should die, I've had more than enough
I keep switchin schools, and I hope to escape
But I still get bullied, my only emotion is pain
They tell me I'm ugly and i'm starting to believe its true
Do you know how hard it is when nobody believes in you?
Suicide seems nice, my only relief is pain
and god never helps out, though I scream his name
From what I've seen, there's no way out of this mess
Home ain't safe, on the internet they clown me, im stressed
Each hurtful thing feels like they pound on my chest
Like I fell in an abyss, walkin around in its depths
I'm insecure, i put make up on to cover my scars
I do my best, a few friends try to comfort my heart
But my heart is a mess, I feel no love and only hate
Maybe I should end it, instead of livin this lonely fate...

[My thoughts]
Flip on the news, to notice a girl I've seen before
Rebecca killed her self, it left me completely sore
Read the story on the ledger, couldn't believe it
seeing her in person you wouldn't have seen it
She seemed happy, the bullying was killing her slowly
Friends had no idea that she was feeling so lonely
They told her she was nothing, that she sould die
spent nights laying awake, she would weep and cry
I wish I could've helped, and it kills me inside
To know if someone helped she would still be alive
It hurts me to know someone I met has ended their life
It hurts more to know she had to pretend she was fine
Kids said they didn't care, she was lost and confused
I know what it feels like cuz I've been talked about to
What the kids did wasn't right, they pushed her to death
they wanna feel bad now after she took her last breath...

[Effects of bullying]
People don't understand what bullying can do to you
You feel lost, the things they say start feelin true to you
You feel useless to and the effects of this are murderous
Feelin like you have no meaning, feelin like your world is shit
In this world the kids have no respect for each other
Even family does it to, kids neglecting their brothers
Friends turn foes when they say they'll forever be with ya
Dissin friends, but before they were "meant to be sisters"
This leads to girls cutting and soon ending in death
The kids that once bullied them pretend to regret
shoulda thought before u acted, you basically killed her
But deep inside, I know you felt a pain and it still hurts
To her mother, sorry you had to go through this madness
Dealin with what was caused by these rude and bad kids
To the girls that caused it, I know your feelin' messed up
Cuz you have to deal with the fact that you killed Rebecca...