short drop

[YDK]

“I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”― Maya Angelou

I've learned a few things burned through mood rings,
bipolar disorder got me switching through queue strings.
"what if's" and Emotions that I've been holding inside,
been showing that I've known that I can openly cry.
My mother taught me that anything is attainable,
but to maintain your heart is barely sustainable.
I couldn't quote directly anything thing that she said,
other than "Don't let your heart ever lie to your head."
Now I'm crying in bed, because I've been trying to thread,
the fine line of caring with my eyes on the dead.
It's only been 4 years since she last graced the earth,
She missed me publishing a book and her grandbaby's birth.
Life's been swirling in my head; fuckin depression and mirth,
But the only thing I recall; is how bad it hurt.

Now I know she was strong surviving cancer for years,
Striving for perfection with a small selection of fears.
Failure was never one of them but to me its the worst,
because I'd rather die in my prime than living a curse.
My kids changed my values I've been as strong as I can,
to show my daughter to never quit and help my son be a man.
Maya said people will only remember the feelings they felt,
So my dying wish for my children is to feel they've been helped.