State Of Mind

[H4ZE]

For days I've felt drained of life
Trying to find my state of mind
Do I want to escape this life?
Or do I want to stay and fight?
Questions in my head,wondering what I should do
Full of hateful rage,and I don't think I can move
I don't want to think, so I'm getting high every day
Smoking away worries at night,then I cry in the day
The hate that I feel,gots me thinking I'm so Insane
Then happiness overcomes me at the slightest of pain
Am I crazy? I think not, but they say that I am
I try not to believe it using all the strength that I can
It overwhelms me,till I'm thinking some dark thoughts
Thoughts of murder,vicious attacks,and makin their heart stop
The way I live,its hard not to be filled with hate
Thinking,the only way to fulfill my rage is to spill my brain

Writing this,was the only way I could change my mind
I think that I've,crossed the border with this state of mind