chasing down a dragon

[dead man]

it's only

another shot at something historical
my greatest fears are love and disorder
becoming normal. numbing boredom. another
junkie stuck in his stories, summoning glory for
a tiny touch of immortality's shores, yes of course
hemoglobin buzz distorting a room
doesn't matter a morsel if it's not important to you
morbid obsessive. core possessive, steady
scorching a spoon. chasing
down a dragon i've been forced to pursue
lord of disenchantment, lord i'm close to an answer
lonesome master. reporting in like 4am news
to anyone home:
drink merrily and travel alone
left lane manic emotive
backseat practically motionless. hand
me your holster, six-shot cylindrical scope
product of a middle-class addiction to dope
plane tickets in coach. morningtime 2% and cinnamon toast
in every nag champa was the scent of a ghost
empty balloons, barnum-bailey our stoop, daily accouterment
scattered paraphernalia, our table was useless
crystal clear the liquid gold that faded her youth
built a home on bloodlust & we buried the blueprint
swear i've been addicted since a kid to consume
anybody out there worth a visit or 2
it's internal, controversial, periodic
recluse. not a modicum of moderation, always abuse
hopscotch on our sidewalk palms are chalky and calloused
settled on contentment so we call it a balance
recalling pasts. holding hands we walked into mass
you stood in line for crackers and i stifled a laugh
now i'm right where i cast myself.
finale it's over
moving again i'll meet you never i'm hopeful, ever remorseful
close my eyes and measure the dosage,
let it overtake, enter the portal, says Lenore
waging holy war like Lenin in office, federal hostage
died and never slept i felt much better exhausted
these are letter deposits. anthropological statement
watching rain fall like constellations swallowing Jameson
copy that, copycats are often mistaken
there's nothing honest about it while it's anonymous, face it
or don't. come to terms with what i've set into motion
build your own ideal and practice letting it go





dm