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Originally Posted by Dr Dog
Uh-oh doesn't have everything he wants. He doesn't want anything. When you don't believe what you want is possible, you have to separate yourself from your desires to stay sane. Uh-oh, unfortunately, has succeeded in this. Now he doesn't want what he cannot have. And what he has, he's had for quite some time now.
So he doesn't want things and feels empty.
It's like being complacent without the smugness.
If you *want* to want things, you have to expose yourself to new ideas and possibilities. You have to allow yourself to pursue what you want.
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That was highly insightful.
I've recently been warming up to the idea that I have what's known as clinical depression, but it's a lot more organic and individualized than I ever realized before having it. I suppose there are likely key elements that attribute to a person becoming clinically depressed, and what you just lined out is likely one of them.
I think a lot of it boils down to hopelessness, or emptiness, if you'd rather put it that way. Life seems dull. I often think about how it's this stubbornness attribute that keeps me 'depressed'. I want life to be something my theories on life dont agree with. When I was younger I saw flaws and wanted to fix them. As I got older I began to accept things for the way they are. The logical answer if you don't like the world, but see no way of fixing it is to stop caring about it, but the apathy also makes me unhappy. Like uh-oh, I seem to expect too much from life.