[Split]

i don't believe in death, i don't think

obviously everyone dies. but the idea that you're permanently dead, that not only will you never think another thought or experience another feeling ever again- thats mad easy for anyone to wrap their head around- but the idea that once your cells die, existence ceases, is fucked up

like i imagine, my conscious will die, and i'll stop existing

but then immediately i'll kind of fade back into consciousness, like I did when I was a little kid

like, what was your earliest memory? My working memory started ON my second birthday party. I was old enough to remember every event from that day and also like random memories from when I was a baby/ about my parents, but also not old enough to do it on my own

my first thought was "didnt i already have this birthday?" cause I had a Lion King themed birthday for my first birthday, too. then from that day I could remember up to like a month ago that wasnt like a Life Event so i guess that was working short term memory or something dumb

so yeah. I figure if I could come into existence like that, it'll happen again.

i wish i could put it in better words, but the fact that we can be born out of nothing means its only natural to die into nothing, and in between the gap after death and before life is the same everything