[dead man]

you dont even know

the needles that i poked in your throat
over and over, do-si-do, dancing mostly alone
to the beat of thrombosis vein strangle choking us slowly
blood in a bowl, so you salivate and swallow it whole
feline fantasy turned enemy. our ecstasy slowed
to a screeching halt / i stopped the car and followed a road
to a fork and knife, a poltergeist with similar poetry
sundress and rosary. she promised me a different dystopia
i left around 9
felt that dagger metal enter your spine
ripping up your tissue as you kiss me goodbye
never one to argue, i just step to the side
answering the siren's call of pleasure & pride
backstabbing rat bastard. counts his blessings in private
spends the rest of his time inside a nightclub letting them die
get me a ride, Lyft to anywhere and planted a seed
soaking in the darkness of this wretched disease
let you freeze. bone and muscle spasms
Metra traffic, stuck in transit
eyelid twitches / tunnel vision / "nothing happened". fuck it
bloody gash, paralysis you're walking backward
wheelchair-bound on army rations
stenosis twist your chiropractic
doublethink your heart imagine
like you never saw it happen
tell another promise that we'll drop inside another casket
fireside we fought a dragon. all behaviors automatic
addicts in a thoughtful panic. i escaped the fall, titanic
drowning in your own Atlantis. guess who's throwing water at it?
i've been taking shots and
tossing darts at you for target practice
zombie-eque your posture,
ghosts inside of your head
you'll be max, i'll be the monster
all the wild things are dead
nailgun nocturne, nighttime may it lull me asleep
nextdoor while spinal fluid leaks all over our sheets
you never knew until i left
how deep that it went
now i've left too many secrets
and you're bleeding to death.





deadman