As far back as I could remember in a flash I was struck by the splendor
daydreaming my fantasy, I began speaking them into existence to render
my thoughts captured by the screen,
I'm mesmerized by the scenes
wishing upon stars for this dream
at night, I lie in my bed I'm envisioning how can a princess blossom into a queen
as this child I all I wanted flashing lights, paparazzi, and the sound of fan's screams
the spark began to ring when my age was 5 when I began to sing
my family would gather around with their cameras snapping pics and videoing
my song and dance, me in my tutu and butterfly wings,
through performing I love the attention that it brings
the desire to be heard through the karaoke machine
the nagging feeling to be famous went on until I was thirteen
when a man suddenly after my school performance a woman in a dark suit and dark glasses handed me and my family a card and asked, "Would you like to be seen?"
My mother asked, "Excuse me?", the woman replied, "Let me rephrase what I mean.
Our team believes your daughter could be a star we could tell by her gleam. Her performance got and standing ovation unlike we have ever seen."
I was absolutely thrilled, "Please Mom, please Mom!" I beggingly shrilled
"Why not," she said, I'm shocked in disbelief this can't be?
but this was the beginning of when my soul started to peel
I wanted fame and fortune to be part of the industry but I didn't know what it would reveal
I signed a contract not knowing what was concealed
my body is now a product, a sex symbol to entertain
the toll it takes my spirit begins to drain
the devil of the industry wants to swallow my soul
I feel empty inside they're pulling my strings to control
paparazzi track my every move and the tabloids I can't avoid
but now every part of me is in a void
I need a break I can even stand to look at my face
now they worship and praise me as their idol on a pedestal I'm placed
take your light off me the tears and soul burst
I need to pull back the curtain in reverse
my emotions are and self-esteem are being cursed
I can't walk down the street without dogs trying to rip my flesh when I meet
I wish I could pull back the light and shade myself from the street
escaping the fire that chars the entirety of my peace