[Adverse]

Getting out of bed per usual, was a tough one, it’s a battle
Overcast skies peeking through the blinds - it’s never sunny in Seattle
In a room that once danced with liveliness, I’m confronted by the shadows
Trying to shed the skin of a lover n a husband, but I can’t though
Drown in the black abyss of my morning coffee that’s long gone cold
Used to be my medicine, now I need a stronger dose
I’ve been bobbin in the waves poured from this bottle, a fifth
It’s my calm before these balled up fists driven through drywall I hauled off n hit
I take a staggered step out of the front door, into the city’s manic streets
The pavement littered with judgmental eyes and all of them attached to me
I dodge the glances, hit the paper stand and am assaulted by ‘TRAGEDY!’
Headline screaming at me, deciphering the text through the dampened ink
Life forcibly drags me back to so many nights before
Where you lie in a crimson pool juxtaposed to the white oak floors
So vibrant yet violent, guilt drives in its fangs n starts eatin at me
Failed you at your darkest hour, I wasn’t the person you needed me to be
My world has been in shambles, haunted by the screams as I sleep
Since I seen you hacked to bits, I’ve been picking up the pieces of me
The same person who did this to you struck again, think I know who it is and where they stay at
The ultimate betrayal, I’ve known him for years we go way back
My hand drifts to my belt, where the pistol’s at I touch it
I could drop the police a subtle tip...fuck that! Time for vigilante justice
Start to make my way through the twisted scapes of the all cement n grey city
The buildings wobble and tilt as the effects of my bender stay with me
Bullets of cold sweat dive from my forehead, disguised in the rainfall
Earthquake inside of me that I can’t shake, approaching the overpass with these anxious thoughts
As I reach the top I’m Met by a familiar face my “WHY DID YOU KILL HER!?” met by a sinister gaze
It’s time to finish this! Pressed it against his temple once my pistol was raised
“I finally caught YOU, you son of a bitch! Know what your punishment is!?”
“It’s Death!” I laugh maniacally, lick a shot, then I fall from the bridge

They used to say creatures were under the bed, or in the closet amongst ties n suits
But I learned quickly the best hiding spot for a monster, is inside of you.