The Heroin Me
She said it’s too late, I told her it’s only a hiccup
She said the heroin is slowly killing her, i said she was dead the moment she picked up
It’s my fault and I know this, two bums in a cellar
It was easy for her to commit to a fraud when she does retail ones for the cheddar
As lame as it sounds, why would she stay by me now?
I’ll tell you why, she’s six months along, weighs ninety pounds
Can’t remember who got who hooked, blame that on the past
The last three years have been hella blurry, we can blame that on the Pabst
Fill the needle with pristine sour, stick her with that crippling powder
Euphoric daily, but a new vein collapses each sixteen hours
Can’t even find one nowadays, when she does it’s dumb nice
Pretty soon the doc will have to slit her wrists just to get her blood type
When I told her I wanted to stop best believe I meant it all
The only ticket outta this world is a lotto one, and it’s laced with Fentanyl
The Hero in Me
So here’s the plan..
Hit Walmart, find cash receipts and hope it sticks
Grab items off the shelf and return them, splurge on a Motel 6
Force her to the room, restrain her with malice and rage
I never owned a rock album in my life, but tonight I got Alice in chains
We’re two days in and she’s shitting at a pummeling pace
And don’t even talk to me about the vomit because it’s coming in waves
The detox is tough, but I know I can’t let her off yet
Because if she gets high one more time our unborn child is better off dead
She’s got stomach pains to the max, I know the tricks to save her
Too late for all that now, early morning Alice is going into labor
Long way from smoking crack, in Cali just snortin’
Punching her in the stomach on the reg and googling “back-alley abortions”
None of that matters now, this is the choice that was made
Natural birth is the only option, my touch is the ointment for pain
Legs spread on a low thread-count bum ass comforter
I’m not gonna let her do this alone, I’m the one that comforts her
Through the dope sickness comes euphoria as I’m filled with joy
We did it Alice, I’m so proud of you, by the way it’s a boy