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Originally Posted by dead man
ya know, every now and then i sit and think about how people i'll never see again have come into my life and changed me entirely by accident, and wonder how often i've served that purpose for others in some small way, without even a single fucking clue
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I lost several people to overdoses just in the past couple years and sadly, you get jaded to it all. Or your denial system kicks in and protects you from grieving them the same way you’d grieve someone who died suddenly in a car crash or a heart attack. Probably not explaining it right. But, a couple months ago, a friend of mine ODed. Didn’t even see a relapse coming so it was a real shock. This one hit hard man. And that was all I thought about, how we grew close for only a year or so before this happened. I went to the funeral and I’d never met any of her family before and I introduced myself to her mom and she cupped my face, cried. And said “So YOU’RE the Nicole she always talked about. She absolutely loved you. So much.” And it surprised me bc I didn’t realize the impact you can have on so many people and how they can forever affect your life without even realizing it while it’s happening. Idk man.. thank you for this read. Sorry for the ramble