Chapter Three - The Water's Edge
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Chapter Four: Loose Ends
*The following continues directly after the events of Chapter Three. If you haven't read it already, or if you need a refresher, please take a look back before beginning this chapter.
"
Surrounded by the flames of jealousy, the jealous one winds up, like the scorpion, turning the poisoned sting against himself." -
Friedrich Nietzsche
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Death has a secret... that's what I thought as I gazed at the waterfall
Envy is a blessing in disguise but I never prayed to a God at all
All sins are basically absolved, my sister's remains were in a box below
I can still see the look on her face, lips posed in an awkward 'Oh'
The rape got her off with a groan, it was like a reverse birth to me
Her skull could surface in the weeds, my sister always turns up it seems...
Since she was a senior I planned for a wedding and nursery
Her name was Anna... It all comes full circle on our anniversary
I gave her the third degree when she met her future husband Nick online
He was constantly on my mind, I was jealous of him for the longest time
I wished I walked a mile in his shoes, I'm tripping over loose ends untied
Nick left her high and dry; Why? Your guess is as good as mine
I beheaded my sis in '09, boxed it and dumped her in the tide
Police mustn't have questioned my lies cuz I'm the luckiest man alive (right?)
But trapped deep inside lies the ugliest guy a mask can find
I mostly seem to be above reprise, no media covered my impassioned crimes
But I expect to discover the reasons behind it, no doubt there's a lesson
Arresting me was no longer the answer, it was just out of the question
So I hopped in my 2017 Kia LX and turned on my GPS (don't laugh)
In a seething sweat I pictured myself peeling Nick's peachy flesh
That's so appealing yet in reality that's how my loyalty commenced
Watching Anna have sex on webcam... yeah, I pledged my allegiance then
The Kia's needle raised off red, I must've stopped and gassed it up
I drive envisioning what could be done... Time flies when you're having fun
Suddenly a creature jumped in the street, I swerved to avoid the hit
Felt a thud, tires spun... the wheel jerked and destroyed the rims
Anna's voice joined in, "If you don't get what you deserve then life's pointless"
"Those opioid binges will only rob the purpose from your choices"
I enjoyed this thought, I feel the mass appeal of a crash can heal
Bent axles and wheels, I found myself roadside with a cracked windshield
It was an old engine, but some ingenuity had me gunning it real quick
I swore my front end had been clipped but there was nothing in the ditch...
Good riddance... Anyway my main motivation was seeing Nick in pain
Got back on the road, I continued even though my GPS complained
The hours came and went, I made the trip to Nick's suburban home
This Harvard homo had a God damn picket fence and a garden gnome (asshole)
'Soon he will gnome me' I spit, funny but this is no time for quips
I pulled a knife and sliced a wrist, got hard while blood dried on my skin
Thought of my next of kin; Anna crying.. Nick leaving at dawn..
I reached for the glove box and got my .38 to even the odds
Broke into the garage, saw two gleaming cars in the cleanest spots
Opened the door to the house and wondered, 'why don't they keep this locked?'
Nice place I thought, then hate erupted... Now I'm on a mission
I instinctively snuck down the hallway towards the light in the kitchen
The truth's right in front of me; Hard journeys sometimes can't be complete
I passed my reflection -- My eyes wide with dark circles underneath
Told myself 'Don't concede', sorry but this guy's got to go
Rounded the corner slow, Nick was cooking stir fry on the stove
This is for breaking Anna's heart you vile monster, I WILL have her revenge
Why take it one step at a time when we all go mad in the end?
That's when he turned around and said "Ben... what are you doing here?"
He wasn't scared and that frightened me... He just kind of coolly stared
"Sit down" he said "I'll make you a plate, just call next time, okay?"
He yelled out, "Hunny! Your brother's here!" And my neck must've caved
Cuz something snapped inside, chills ran up my spine in a deep shock
That's when my sister walked in (fuck)... and I instantly dropped...
It all went dark; I recalled her dismembered body.. her kids in the loft dead
Wondering, if she's alive... What the hell was in that box then?
Must be off my rocker yet I'm quite aware life isn't fair
While looking behind the mirror it appears all the hints were there...
"... I kept cutting in the dim light, trust me I couldn't make this up..."
"... Isn't it strange how people blinded by love have to disappear to see visions? …"
Anna said, "Have you been off your meds again?"... "Ben, you gotta listen"
Then she mentioned something about a Doctor Dixon and hospital visits
"God damnit" she said, "Use your brain, it's what your thick skull can't protect"
"Don't you get what I'm saying, Benjamin? It's just all in your head!"
"You've always been jealous of us!" she yelled in the evilest tone
"Call us breathing heavy and barely speak on the phone... Leave us alone!"
I was happy to see her unbroken but couldn't say what I came here to say
Her children rushed in alive and well and huddled behind their parents legs
They thought Uncle's here to stay; I'm just another person once dispersed
The nature of my reality had managed to pave the way for something worse
So I removed the pistol from my shirt, applied the steel to my lips firm
This is to be sure all debts are paid... Signed, sealed and delivered
"Benjamin... don't!" <- The final desperate plea from my sister
I heard a whisper,"
The secret is..." I hurry and pull the trigger...
Bam.
Wanna know what happened next? I imagined I felt the heaviest round...
In my chest... a flash of red... I'll tell you the rest when in the ground
When my eyeballs are eaten out and my insides disemboweled
My body violently getting pulled down with my head in the clouds
You only start to question if heaven's profound when the devil's around
Guess this is what occurs when a body of water is too empty to drown
I was born the deadliest prowler mixed with the world's friendliest clown
But I know death's secret sound, so tell me ...
Who's envious now?