Chapter Two - Before Life
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Chapter Three: The Water's Edge
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"
But, I argue, if a single drop falls into the ocean, it creates ripples. And these ripples spread. And perhaps - who knows - these ripples may grow and swell and eventually break foaming upon the shore." -
Margaret Weis
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I love my older sister, since we were young I followed in her footsteps
We were always in the same boat until she got swallowed up by the depths
I wanted to confess the very day I took that unusual risk
When the water's edge reflected the self esteem of an opportunity missed
This is how life's fountain's measured, I told myself it was now or never
And whatever I decide we will grow up or go down together
But I'm getting ahead of myself clearly, apparently the past drowns fear
Believe it or not it wasn't hard to find common ground around here
And that's saying something; Just look at the weight our pact carried
My reactions vary cuz I'm afraid of nothing, and that scares me
A cherished memory: We'd sit on the window sill talking for weeks
I'd kill all of these thoughts that don't bleed -- but still water runs deep
My sister's cistern's got leaks; Being on a different wavelength's odd
I hate that the song of her life was cut short and my days stayed long
My sister taught me everything; How to ride a bike and write these letters
We laughed, we swam, we cried... we passed the time together
Yet the waterfall divided us, she always dived while I stood
She couldn't just dip a toe in without slipping in an entire foot
Why bookmark a page when our happiness ain't in the cards?
Unearthed truth basically mars; I just wish it didn't break me apart
Like when water reached her ankle, my insides shook out diamond shards
The blood rushed in, by and large, no hiding the fact I was hard
Tucked it in my drawers, watched intently for teeth in the water
In retrospect I don't know what's worse, seeing or NOT seeing a monster...
But over the decades we grew; She got married and had babies too
Her husband vanished with lame excuses... that's when I made my move
No topping the earthquake that loomed, it was no ordinary fissure
I was plain consumed, I grabbed her hips and then forcefully kissed her
I felt her go rigid; "
I'm... I'm sorry" was all I could say
She recoiled back and said "
I love you brother... just not in that way"
Pain burned right next to my brain, I guess hell had found a neighbor
The next sound she made was a yelp as I held her down and raped her
She begged for help, I banged her hard, busted inside to state my cause
All communication stopped... that's what I would call a pregnant pause
My mind was barely hanging on, rafters were fastened to a cord quick
The rope cut when my phone buzzed, the text said 'I had an abortion'
Of course she filed a restraining order, but to me it was an obvious lie
She didn't press charges (yet)... I took that as a positive sign (plus...)
I went to her apartment that night with an 8 inch serrated kitchen knife
Grabbed her hair from behind, wrenched it back and severed her windpipe
I kept cutting in the dim light, trust me I couldn't make this up
Cleaned every trace of blood, placed her head in a box and taped it shut
Dissolved body parts in the tub, left her kids dead in the office loft
Brought the cardboard box to the edge of the waterfall, then tossed it off
I think the box said 'Columbia' on it... it's weird that was written
Cuz what lives in my mind will forever be seared as an image
Isn't it strange how people blinded by love have to disappear to see visions?
I'll plead the fifth as seasons shift, but I'll return here every year to re-live it...
I miss you, sis.