I know i'm strong.. I grew up in the projects for almost 3 years, the shit that rappers either lie about or glorify, that was my life for real. My brother killed himself in 2008 my other brother was shot to death in 2011. My growing up and childhood wasn't a fairy tale pretty story, although I knew people who had it worse.
But I'm obviously weak now in self pity and a lack of discipline to not be able to stop drinking. Which at least i'm not too far gone to be introspective and know thats what I'm doing, but that doesn't mean fucking anything if you keep doing it.
Things will change they have to... I still monetarily provide for my gf and my daughter by doing things that I won't mention on here.. but yeah mentally i'm all fucked up thanks for asking about me though
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