[uh-oh]

when julius caesar was 33 he saw a shrine to alexander the great, and thought to himself, wtf have i done in my life? by the time alexander was my age he conquered the world. caesar used this as motivation which led to a storied career and life to such an extent that i know of him in 2018 and whoever is reading this at least knows of his name.

after learning that years ago i probably microwaved some pizza rolls and scratched my nuts before watching the sopranos for the 16th time.

i've discovered the only problem with living the life you wish in your heart, is it leads to too much time for contemplation. so one thinks of things. those who don't live the life they wish is too busy for the contemplation. its almost a fair trade of misery. i will continue with the time of contemplation for the foreseeable future. its all i know.