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happy 4th my brother

i am constantly improving. just not in ways that society deems necessary

i am losing weight to prolong the life of my joints. the physical activities i engage in to make money and being probably 80 pounds overweight don't go hand in hand. this self improvement is just a tactic to prolong my physical self destruction. if my mechanical body fails prior to my organs, i am fucked. if that makes sense. i still plan on living hard and recklessly and punching the ticket around 60-70 tops. if my body were to fail at 40 however, i would not be able to support myself FINANCIALLY until organ failure. so realistically i would be forced to top myself 20-30 years early. that is 20-30 years of earthly pleasures i am denying myself.