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"Dopeless Hope Fiend" (2002)

Dwell stressed? I inhale Sess, so problems unveil less.
Well kept at rock bottom, turn it over to God or haven’t fell yet
Wander through hell’s depths, up “12 steps” to escape insanity.
Crave fixtures of liquor, avoiding to picture the true man in me.
Can’t stand the drink, is to stand the brink & dive off rocky bluffs.
For a drunk, one drink is to many, an a thousand is not enough.
Lost in habits, the fact is my life smashed to tad bits in havoc.
Addicts will dash quick across ongoing traffic for the last hit.
Get smashed with liqs, weed, lines to sniff and the best of pills .
I’m powerless over drugs, pay my dealer for the electric bills.
Living in & out septic fields, life’s shit, direction down drains.
All cares gone, bare arms to hair-on, injections found veins.
Reflection amounts pain, pale, frail, & weak, my hunger aches.
Coke rush, feeling like the Hulk but 40 pounds under weight.
Thunder shakes through my body, DTDs, I yearn to solve.
It’s said misery loves company, but won’t return my calls.
Burned up all ambitions, twitching & wishing a no tell doom.
Throwing raging parties by myself in side hotel rooms.
Soak in wounds, try to hide my feelings, it’s a way of coping.
When drugs stop working, I turn into a dopeless hope fiend.

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