[uh-oh]

this threads 2 years old, and all the beats i posted were really old lol

but im listening back now and agree with my drunken self of 2 years ago

i think my current position with beats is strange because i peaked in like 2014 maybe later i dunno

but the muscle atrophied, combined with the fact that im way more perfectionist now. i don't even save shit like these anymore i just close out of the program like fuck it.

its like being i dunno a bodybuilder or something. you work at it till you can bench 500 lbs or some goofy shit. and your like yea im nice i can bench 500. but then you lose interest in hitting weights, but in the back of your head your like man i can bench 500 lbs. then years go by and you hit the gym and wonder why you struggle to bench 250. except in this scenario you might get lucky and hit 500 lbs once. but every time im going in im trying to hit 500 cuz thats the standard i set

maybe i need to just start making subpar shit to work my way back