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i don't want to be the don't take the meds guy but i think its PHOOEY pseudo science

like you i went to a government run type center back when i was at rock bottom, basically within talking with a therapist/psychologist whatever for an introductory session they threw me on lexapro and some blood pressure shit. i don't think they wanted to give me anxiety meds because i was honest and said i smoke weed and drink to get fucked up? but the blood pressure pills were supposed to curb the anxiety, but yea they hit me with the diagnosis of severe depression and social anxiety

i was like ok whatever, and tried their regimen for awhile. it did literally nothing. they doubled my dosage of lexapro and it still did nothing, i went in again and they were going to double it again and put me on something else. i stopped going.

then i came to the realization i was depressed because i was a bum with no job who did fuck all. my social anxiety is just me not fucking with people. this contributed to my depression because i was trying to pretend like i enjoyed others company

it is literally all in your head. anyone who has benefitted from psych meds or whatever you call this stuff, mental health pills whatever, bought in. i didn't buy in. they did nothing. im placebo proof. there is no way for them to gauge if you have a chemical imbalance, it is literal malarkey. you feel better by feeling better.

i did everything they didn't want me to, but i wanted to. isolated. got FOLDED on the reg. played video games, disassociated women from being people to being objects that extort cum from my genitals and sociopathically only treat them like people to meet that end.

but the main thing was securing employment that is somewhat meaningful and having people rely on me. a man needs purpose. not only taking care of my pops but having a job where if im not there everything goes to shit. but word

i basically willed myself into happiness in the bleak hell hole that boof escaped from.

if you ruminate in thoughts of misery you will be miserable. be happy

if medication can do that for you godspeed. im not trying to deter you if you think it will help

for all i know they didn't do shit because i wasn't actually depressed?