[El Muffin]

Anyways . there's a bunch of overcompensatung being done . I know it and confess as much . this is what happens when u spend 6-7 years depressed N mind bogglingly overweight thinking that's who you are yknow

Only to realise your someone entirely different . I'm my dad in his late 20s .. Even he's like worried but proud its the oddest thing

But yeah shit bout to get etched in lore out here

Nigga passed out in my car adjacent to cop shop.. Key in ignition .. Dome light on .. Dick out n jizz stain running across my exposed black boxers . I can't remember who sucked me up I just remember her hair was brown n I was jacking off into her mouth blew my load n zonked out

N then wake up n hear ppl telling me someone I know recorded a vid of me n posted it on Snap

Lol . its Fucking hooliganism at its finest let me liiiiveeeee

Surprised I didn't catch a charge given keys were in ignition

I'm not fronting like I'm letting u know my reasoning behind why I'm out here wyling..

Ppl who have known me forever get it bro

They just wish me the best and hope I don't like get hurt or get imprisoned. But they aren't knocking me for acting an ass . its a strange dynamic . I don't expect you to understand .. Given a lot if you have done things the right way n are now coasting through life .. Which I admire Tbh

But as of now . that shit doesn't appeal to me . I'm mashing the gas .

I'm not trying to project myself as being like awesome coz of all of this . its just like.. I'm impulsive .. Dunno my capabilities everything needs to be touched / "ooo that looks fun " whereas I felt imprisoned within my mind for years?

Trying to help y'all understand me in a deeper level coz its more complex than hey we get it you used to be fat n depressed . lol .

I know ya don't care but I feel better about being able to try to describe my mindstate

Maybe I need a shrink . I legit went crazy on ppl last night