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this roy keane guy is a dullard

the phone thing was the only part of that vid worthy of highlighting. but im from america where everyone on TV is an over acting wacky personality to stand out, espescially when it comes to sports talk. most of them are ex players as well which means they're half retarded and shoot from the hip, but they're mostly out to just get a soundbite

but yea i've known some insane people throughout life, but i don't know at what level someone becomes an actual sociopath/psychopath. cuz i know people who care for nothing but their family, but im not sure if them caring for their family qualifies them.

sometimes i convince myself i am but i think im just more of a narcissist because that whole wacky emotion empathy that rears its head.

ever since i heard serial killers kill animals as a kid i've been sorta worried because i killed a toad when i was like 8. there was a clothesline post, in concrete, in a yard. if that makes sense. like someone just poured enough concrete to hold the post. and i had a brick, and i remember my sister crying and there was other kids there, as i put a toad on the concrete and DASHED him to bits with a brick. it was experimentation though. im sure i just wanted to see what would happen

i think it scarred me though, because when we were setting up this new building when our business moved, i was clearing out the backlot and found a huge toad. i picked him up with a shovel, and was struck with the brilliant idea of catapulting it over the fence and into weeds/brush. but i underestimated the point at which the toad leaves the shovel head, and basically jai alai'd him into the fence. i felt really bad though. granted him flying over the fence and disappearing in the brush wasn't a guarantee of the little fucko's safety, but i didn't want to rocket him into a chainlink fence either.

i also cut one in half re arranging the scrap pile, but that was accidental and it made me feel bad. RIP

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