[Geno]

I loved this.
Ive been kicking arouns the idea that im possibly not real anymore. Somehow. Somewhere a long the lines. Ive leapt decades into maturity and left an older more wreckless geno behind. Amni even alive? Or did i die when i od'd years ago?idk. Did i wake up into the world of life when i rose in the icu in that philly hospital after taking the worst beating i ever took with my head the size of a basketball.. Or did i never make it out of there alive?idk. I honestly dont remember. And since then ive felt this never ending feeling of punishment that only sinks in when i feel im starting to achieve somethinf but then something i love dissapeara for some reason.

Its like a smack in the face, for past sins and mistakes.
Is this some form of hell, im trapped in someplace?

I wish i knew. This piece took me even deeper into these ideas. Smh. I just dont know anymore. Everything seems so surreal nowadays