Well, had a hard days work for the first time in a few weeks, and then went to bed real early and forced myself to go back to sleep after a few times of waking up.
And now I feel totally normal..just night&day.. And like "WTF was I doing with some of the things I was writing here on the lime?" In fact, before falling back2sleep to finish the sleep, I actually thought about the logistics of erasing 95% of my posts, both rap and discussion, just because I think "shame" had entered back into my being (like normal humans have).. haha.. (I would have kept emcee's tho because he is dope "more often" than I am, plus it'd be "entertaining evidence" for why I was bullied off the site)..
...But then I read this post I made here and it's "not that bad".. tbh.. Really not too embarrassing.. some ya'll should be proud that certain threads inspired me to "post as a real human" even if some of it was fucked up "life shit"..
So now that I'm feeling normal, I think to myself: ok, I'm probably bipolar and a degenerate who writes too much material and talks too much shit... big fucking deal-- I'm incredibly well-adjusted compared to 80% of the weirdos here-- like emos, and conspiracy theorists, and former druggies who used to perpetrate in sadistic and graphic gay sex acts, and "serial boarders" who validate their life by making an epic reply,,
So really I've come to embrace the lime; and I blame you All.
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