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Pharaohs Army · 03-03-2016, 08:26 AM

i don't know guys. it's kinda hard to explain.
i've been thinking about making a 'goodbye'(from this site)type-verse, which of course would be "from myself" (pharaohs), and it'd be totally epic and deep and from a 100% real place from my inner core. And I'd write it and edit it for a period of days instead of sitting down for a half hour and making it up as I go. But I doubt I could do either thing (leave / write properly).. so that's just an idea I'm floating now since a certain user here has actually hit a few sore spots of late. Particularly where he had a line that kind of "spoke for the community of he and netcees".. just really clever and fucked. I'm sure something will hit me as far as a great response for him but it's starting to (finally) get to the point where it's starting to get a little bit unhealthy and masochistic.

Speaking of him, emcee has always had an idea in mind where he writes a "medical verse for the buddha", which basically would be a syllabic extravaganza which PROPERLY rhymed a shit-ton of medical/mental terminology, and it could only be spit by rappers who know what they're doing. Again, it'd have to be researched (not a field I'm familiar with), and also written with discipline and effort, where the rhyming would be a "given" but the content and cohesion would be sick as well.

Recently I've come to the conclusion that being an editor is my calling in life. I'm wondering the "ethics" of becoming an editor for college kids' research papers&essays (I'm reallllly good; I can do it where I don't change their content but just nip and tuck expertly).. I donno. Probly hard to make a living on that, but we can all dream right?

Truly Laughed out loud at a few things Lars said here. I really wanna quote but I donno- find your own favorites.

Dull boy I feel kinda bad for you because sometimes shit just 'is what it is', but I understand you may have an actual chemical imbalance. Like do you ever just think 'fuk i dont need dat bitch and the world is actually cool becuz i'm ridin round blunted n dont giv a fuk'? or do you ever think 'this mindless show is really funny and i love the taste of this unhealthy snack while i watch it'. lol
Really a hypocritical move on my part to ask you these questions-- just curious tbh

Godcomplex aka Buddha you're right bro; well said.

I hope I'm not too much of an embarrassment as far as my extreeme overuse of the "feedback topic". If I'm being honest I cannot stop myself. Sorry.

Everyone to some extent feels different and fluctuates and has different perspectives... it's taken me a lot of overcoming denial but on some occasions I can see where mine can be very real and very extreme and very rapid. It's actually enjoyable and fun sometimes, but not everyone can be an energizer bunny forever. Sometimes there's a price to pay, so to speak.

As far as writing goes I am just absolutely intrigued to no end about the 2 polar extremes of a writing process-- 1)where ideas for multiples and sickly structured phrases come to mind while I'm trying to fall asleep (specially shortly after a lonnng weed binge; which we've stopped for now but that's a whole nother can of worms),, anyways I save sick little snippets and send them to my own e-mail, then I have a really fun time piecing them together and making something out of them. Of course I fill in the gaps on the fly, but the initial rhymes give me not only a schematic idea but also a content idea.... then 2)you've got what Zen told me about, where you could write EXACTLY what you "wanna say" and then work on making it rhyme... I've dabbled in this a little bit but it's hard because it's something I have to "do", as opposed to #1 which just comes naturally.. but tbh a lot of times i just #3)start on blankslate... #1 is when I write "well" though, as far as shit i can rap and should record.

N.e.wayz I like writing; bbl
Lars, insult me freely.
you're fine witty; cheers

03-03-2016, 08:26 AM	#50
Pharaohs Army Banned Join Date: Aug 2014 Posts: 2,956 Battle Record: 6 - 14 Rep Power: 0	i don't know guys. it's kinda hard to explain. i've been thinking about making a 'goodbye'(from this site)type-verse, which of course would be "from myself" (pharaohs), and it'd be totally epic and deep and from a 100% real place from my inner core. And I'd write it and edit it for a period of days instead of sitting down for a half hour and making it up as I go. But I doubt I could do either thing (leave / write properly).. so that's just an idea I'm floating now since a certain user here has actually hit a few sore spots of late. Particularly where he had a line that kind of "spoke for the community of he and netcees".. just really clever and fucked. I'm sure something will hit me as far as a great response for him but it's starting to (finally) get to the point where it's starting to get a little bit unhealthy and masochistic. Speaking of him, emcee has always had an idea in mind where he writes a "medical verse for the buddha", which basically would be a syllabic extravaganza which PROPERLY rhymed a shit-ton of medical/mental terminology, and it could only be spit by rappers who know what they're doing. Again, it'd have to be researched (not a field I'm familiar with), and also written with discipline and effort, where the rhyming would be a "given" but the content and cohesion would be sick as well. Recently I've come to the conclusion that being an editor is my calling in life. I'm wondering the "ethics" of becoming an editor for college kids' research papers&essays (I'm reallllly good; I can do it where I don't change their content but just nip and tuck expertly).. I donno. Probly hard to make a living on that, but we can all dream right? Truly Laughed out loud at a few things Lars said here. I really wanna quote but I donno- find your own favorites. Dull boy I feel kinda bad for you because sometimes shit just 'is what it is', but I understand you may have an actual chemical imbalance. Like do you ever just think 'fuk i dont need dat bitch and the world is actually cool becuz i'm ridin round blunted n dont giv a fuk'? or do you ever think 'this mindless show is really funny and i love the taste of this unhealthy snack while i watch it'. lol Really a hypocritical move on my part to ask you these questions-- just curious tbh Godcomplex aka Buddha you're right bro; well said. I hope I'm not too much of an embarrassment as far as my extreeme overuse of the "feedback topic". If I'm being honest I cannot stop myself. Sorry. Everyone to some extent feels different and fluctuates and has different perspectives... it's taken me a lot of overcoming denial but on some occasions I can see where mine can be very real and very extreme and very rapid. It's actually enjoyable and fun sometimes, but not everyone can be an energizer bunny forever. Sometimes there's a price to pay, so to speak. As far as writing goes I am just absolutely intrigued to no end about the 2 polar extremes of a writing process-- 1)where ideas for multiples and sickly structured phrases come to mind while I'm trying to fall asleep (specially shortly after a lonnng weed binge; which we've stopped for now but that's a whole nother can of worms),, anyways I save sick little snippets and send them to my own e-mail, then I have a really fun time piecing them together and making something out of them. Of course I fill in the gaps on the fly, but the initial rhymes give me not only a schematic idea but also a content idea.... then 2)you've got what Zen told me about, where you could write EXACTLY what you "wanna say" and then work on making it rhyme... I've dabbled in this a little bit but it's hard because it's something I have to "do", as opposed to #1 which just comes naturally.. but tbh a lot of times i just #3)start on blankslate... #1 is when I write "well" though, as far as shit i can rap and should record. N.e.wayz I like writing; bbl Lars, insult me freely. you're fine witty; cheers Last edited by Pharaohs Army; 03-03-2016 at 08:38 AM.