[Wise Wiggles]

I appreciate it pancakes. you hit it. this netcees shit is crazy. this is a major release. I can't post this on fb. it's just that there is crater that is so massive that it's endless. No end in sight. It's an eternal crater in my heart. Wasnt just a dude. This was totally unexpected. Very deep SHOCK. I can not comprehend this. He was everything. Main pot. Everything else was minescule little side bets. He had a vision for me. A plan and goals and he was supposed to be here with me for that like always. My big uncle justin. You know he was just soooooooo cool and there. And everything was bareable. Now nothing is. I don't know what to do. I work. Get home. Dwell. Pick up girl. Dwell. Make her cry. I'm hurting myself. Can't eat. Lost what little muscle I had. I am just a comple shell right now and maybe forever. He was it for me. For a lot of fucking people, he was it. Like it's been embedded deeeeep into, my roots are his roots. His were there before mine. They were always stronger and more sturdy. The strength of his presence alone was a magnificent force to see. Always aware and understanding. Or not. Not if you needed a talking to. Like if we'd meet in person, you'd be hearing of my uncle justin whether you wanted to or not. WHEN he was alive.